Letting go. || Shawn Mendes

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You know that saying " if you love them, let them go."? Well what if you love them too much that you never want to let go. What if they were your safe place?

Well.. He was-is my safe place. He has always been my safe place.

That day he gave me a voice when I didn't have one, was the day I knew who I wanted to be with.

Our first time looking into each others eyes wasn't magical not was it normal. But you could feel something. I felt as if he was staring into me.

As if he had gone far beyond what anyone could see. He had found a piece of me I didn't even recognize.

He helped me through the unknown. He had not only helped me. But he had helped millions of other screaming fa- no wait. Friends. He had helped millions of his friends from around the world.

He was their sunshine.

And They were his.

But the most fascinating part of it all? He was just an average teenage boy. He was just living an extraordinary life.

He was my best friend.

I didn't have the choice of letting him go physically, but I did have the choice of letting him go mentally. That was the one part that I couldn't do.

For months I have gotten countless numbers of "I'm sorry." "He's in a better place now." "Don't worry sweetie, heaven has gained an amazingly talented angel." "He's not really gone."

But what I never got was why they had always told me he was still here. It never felt like he really was.

Without him, the sun never shined. The birds never sang their song. The grass began to die. The flowers began to wilt. The wind never whistled. And the waves never spoke again. This world was lifeless without him.

I was living, but what for?
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A/N : Well This was suspenseful. I know people say it's hard to manage writing more than one book, which it is but this is one book that I will not give up on. Hope you guys are enjoying this.