Letting go. || Shawn Mendes

T e n || Pt. 2

February 3,2015
• Shawn's Pov •

.... I have no words. I can't explain how I feel. I can't explain how much I care about her.

She's always been there for me and I had shut her out. I used to be so open with her about everything. Then all of a sudden everything just changed.

She was happy and I wasn't. It's as if we had just switched lives.

I can still hear my fans chanting my name and in all honesty I have no motivation to go out and sing right now.

That's my problem. I am required to sing now. I used to do it for fun and now it's just all a job.

I love singing, I love the support but sometimes it all gets a little too much.

You only know so much about your breaking point. You say to yourself "I'm strong." "Ignore it." "I'm happy" but you're lying to yourself, and that's the worst thing you can do.

*knocking at door*

I wipe my eyes as much as I can and I get up. I put my hand on the knob and turn it.

"Uh, Shawn. You have to go on. They're tearing the place apart and so many girls are getting hurt because of the riot."

"What about security?"

"We have full staff trying to maintain the crowd. They keep changing your name."

"Umm, alright.ill go in a bit."

I close the door and start getting my guitar ready, you know? Making sure it's tuned.

"Shawn you can't go."

"I have to. I have no choice. This is my life now."
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A/N: I'm back to 266 words agin😭 I'm sorry. Anyways Hope you guys kinda liked this and had a feeling of suspense??