Letting go. || Shawn Mendes

T h r e e

November 20, 2014

• Shawn's Pov •
It's been a week since I was lost in darkness. Now I just can't find any motivation to get up and actually work.

She is my everything. We have been the closest of friends for 4 years. And not once has she ever even hinted at the way she feels.

She was always that happy girl. The one that you would see smiling in every picture. It wasn't a fake smile. At least I thought it wasn't.

You see, this girl has been by my side. She has always had the courage to stand up for what she believed in. She was an honor student. She had her life planned out.

As for me, well I failed at everything. In all honesty, the only things I were good at were music and hockey. I'm not a funny guy, I'm not smart. I'm average. There was nothing that made me stand out from everyone else. I was in the crowd, but never spotted.

She was there to help me find who I was. She encouraged me through things not even my own parents did.

She is the reason why I stand up In front a crowd. The reason why thousands of fans are screaming my name. The YouTube covers were all put up because of her. The vine videos were all posted because of her.

Many people tell me that I'm only the star I am today because of me. That I shouldn't really thank anyone. That all the talent was me. The courage and confidence was all inside me. But that's not true.

She is my confidence. She is my inspiration to my talent. She is my everything.

I'd do anything to be able to look into her eyes and see a sparkle. Not because of the moonlight. And most definitely not because of light reflecting off of them. But because I want to see the light inside her escaping through the only pathway.

How though?

• Her Pov •

He saw me.
He saw the darkness inside me.
He saw all of me.

Now what? I know he'll want in. But I just can't.

My thoughts are too deep. He'll drown. I know he will.

I break down once in awhile because I'm attacked by my own thoughts. They suffocate me. It's like black water filling my lungs.

I cry for help but there's no one to hear me. And if they're inside me.. Then chances are they're my demons.

What if he gets lost? What if he actually finds my happiness? Chances are.. He won't survive.
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A/n : Well hello there! I don't know about you guys but I am seriously loving the depth of all this. 😭😍 ( I say this a lot, but it's true) This chapter is 431 words long and that's how my others have been. Is this too short ?