Letting go. || Shawn Mendes

F i v e

November 22, 2014

• Her Pov •

Is he crazy?! He'd die.

The surface of my eyes are an electric blue, but look a little deeper...tell me what you see.
....
Exactly, you see nothing.

You can imagine all you want. You can look into my eyes and see the sun shining right through me or, you can look and see reality.

My eyes only see what I want. I have control. And what I see, well I can't tell you - can I?

• Shawn's Pov •

I've had enough of pretending to not see what I saw. I've had enough of just sitting here and thinking. I need to help her. She's dying inside and I'm the only one that can see. I have no back up, I have no one to lean on. But she has me.

To: Ma Main Girl
Come over, we need to talk.

From: Ma Main Girl
No. We don't need to do anything.

Alright. I know she's upset. I know whatever is wrong with her is killing her inside. She's gone. She's been gone for awhile and I haven't even noticed.

The damage has been done. It's almost permanent.

How do you make someone happy who's never experienced it?

Do they even know what happy is?

I wanted to help her. I really did. But she's shut me out.

I'm afraid to be let back in. What if she starts from where it all happened? Our friendship would mean nothing if she decides to forget.

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To: Ma Main Girl
Open your door.

From: Ma Main Girl
Literally, go away.

I tighten my hands around the small phone. My hands pale white.

I looked up to her window and I see that it's cracked open just a bit.

Let's test out how good of a climber I am?

• Her Pov •
I hear leaves rustling and branches being cracked.

I hear a faint "Fuuuucckk " being mumbled. Shawn.

I quickly run to my window and close it shut. I see him Fasten up his pace and he reached my window, easily opening it.

Dammit. It wasn't locked.

"Stop. We need to talk."

"Why? So you can learn everything about me? You already know everything."

"No I don't. You know I don't."

"Shawn, leave. I'm not an open book."

" I know you aren't, but There's a light that's trying to escape."

"How do you know?"

"Because I've known you for 4 years. And in those 4 years I'm certain there was a point where you at no worries. Where you would just smile and the all the flowers would bloom and the Sun was brighter. "

"Shawn. Stop."

"No, I'll stay here. I won't leave your side. I'll sit in silence. I'll get lost in the dark. Only for you."

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A/N: Bad chapter? I know.😭 I didn't know how to End it and I had writers block. This is basically a filler. Okay so I've made my choice on her name: either Aspyn or Brooklyn.