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Stay

You said you would stay
but I don't believe you because
everyone eventually leaves me
so I can't say I'm surprised I
kind of expected you to leave

I don't have expectations for
anyone one to say because if
I do. I will be the one getting hurt
you say you aren't the same, then
why leave and hurt me it means

You never cared for me in the first
place it was me who got attached
and clingy while you seem to be
unscathed. I thought I finally found a
friend who knows it would only last

A week, I should have enjoyed it while
it lasted, but if I did, I wouldn't be able to
move on even though I don't want to
admit it, you were very nice to talk to
and I hope you felt joy when talking to

Me as I talked to you, but I doubt it because
if you felt joy, you would still be talking to me. I wish people would say and not dissappear on me because it makes me
wonder if what she said was true that

I'm probably the problem because if
I wasn't the problem then maybe you
would have stayed, and I want to talk
to you, but you don't want to talk. We
have reached a crossroads already

I wish you didn't leave far away then
maybe our friendship would have
been easier to go about, but what can
I do then just wait for you to text me
and I don't know when that is because I

Don't know if you are tired of me yet or
not and when I'm here overthinking the
worst possible out come you seem so
casual about it like but it's killing me on
the inside, but you probably will not know
or you do know by the way I text you choose

To ignore it, which is hard for me to navigate, and I don't know if it's you pushing me away because I'm nice to you
but you should know that I'm not going anywhere, and I'm here to stay

Maybe it's the way you were hurt you
choose to push people away and hope they
stay or test their loyalty, but you should know that by the way I texted you, I wasn't going to leave or hurt you, not intentionally anyway, but I hope you are happy.