My Annoying Brother

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6.

I miss Seung Kwan so much. Every day I wish for him to come back home. I told him about Joshua, and he was more excited about it than me. I didn't talk about Lee Chan since I don't want to make a big deal out of it.

Valentines' day is approaching. Vernon and Min Gyu have been giving me these weird ideas to ask Joshua out. Like do I even stand a chance? There are more than hundreds of girls out there dying to be with Joshua. And I don't think that I'm in his league anyways. Seung Kwan, Min Gyu and Vernon have been telling me to build up more self-confidence. But I think that's not the issue here.  I believe a lot of girls will be giving gifts to Joshua and ask him out as well and where do I stand a chance? And even if I do then I don't think Joshuas' admirers would let me live in peace.

I thought Jeong Han was really self-centered and never cared about anyone. But as we go past each other in school I can feel his disgusted gaze towards me. I think he remembers me from that incident. I never thought that my high school life would be so fucked up. I often wonder how Jeong Han and Joshua are twins or even brothers or even blood related. Why does Jeong Han even exist? Why does anyone except me and Joshua exist? I wish there were only us.

I can feel that Lee Chan has been acting so weird around me lately. I'm totally not used to this. And I can also see that he has been keeping an eye on me in school. Like wasn't he the one who told me not to go around him at school? Wasn't he the one who wanted to pretend not to know me? All of this is so suspicious that I've been building up crazy theories about his change.

1. He might soon be dying.

2. He is not Lee Chan but an imposter.

3. He might have been kidnapped and brainwashed by aliens.

4. Or an alien came as his replacement.

5. It might be Lee Chans' long lost twin we don't know about, and Lee Chan is dead. So, the twin came to find his real parents and found us finally. As Lee Chan is dead, he is pretending to be him.

6. Someone who hated Lee Chan killed him and changed his face as Lee Chans' with plastic surgery.

Am I going crazy making up all of these theories or has Lee Chan gone crazy? Whatever. I don't have any time to think about him. I'm already so concerned about Valentine's Day. I don't want to go to school. I want to dig up a hole and stay there the whole day.

As expected, a lot of girls gave presents to Jeong Han and Joshua. And a lot of heartbreaks too. I kind of feel happy because Min Gyu and Vernon were so hyped until now and were pushing me to ask out Joshua but this whole day until now, they didn't say a word about it anymore. Now that I think about it, it feels weird and suspicious. But I trust my friends. They couldn't have done something stupid behind my back at all. I know. I know right? Right? RIGHT? Now I feel anxious. I hope they didn't do anything at all. I don't want Joshua and my current relation to turn out bad because of them doing anything stupid.

Out of nowhere Min Gyu and Vernon wanted to eat lunch and the rooftop of our school. Students aren't supposed to go there but they insisted on going there. They made sure no one saw us. Someone was already there. I thought we were the only ones sneaking in there. Suddenly Vernon snatched my lunch box from me and Min Gyu handed me a rose. Wait. What is happening? Oh no!!!!!!