My Annoying Brother

11

11.

Mom's funeral ended. I don't know what to feel anymore. When mom was still in the hospital I had hope. Now there's no room for any hope. Death is a part of the life cycle, and I have to accept it. Though mom's gone we have to live our daily lives.

I needed some time to grasp everything. I missed school for 1 week. Seung Kwan left last night. I guess everyone is trying to move on from this incident. Honestly no one thought mom would wake up again. We were all just lying to ourselves. We all knew that we wouldn't be able to talk to her anymore. I miss mom. I miss her so much. I miss the warmth of her hug. Who would hug me like that again?

Usually, I go to school by myself, but dad asked Min Gyu and Vernon to take me to school from no on since after mom's death I collapsed 5 times already. Lee Chan also wanted to go to school with us. I don't know why he is allergic to the twins. Last night after Seung Kwan left he came to my room, to talk about the Joshua situation.  I don't know who told him about Jeong Han but somehow, he knew about the Jeong Han issue too. I don't like Lee Chan, but I think mom's death put an impact on him and he hasn't been acting rough with me anymore. But still, I don't want him to interfere my life in any way. Whomever I like is my own choice not his. He doesn't have the right to tell me to stay from anyone. If he acted like my brother since the beginning, I would've listened to him.

Lee Chan asked me about Jeong Han and Joshua. He wanted me to tell him the truth. Do I have to? He wanted to know what was going on in between the three of us. I don't want to tell him anything. It's my problem and I will solve it by myself. He warned me no to go near them. Why do I have to listen to him? Who does he think he is?

I guess this is why he is going to school with us, so he can keep me from talking to the twins. Min Gyu and Vernon both are scared of Lee Chan because of his past behavior towards them. They don't dare to defend me in front of him. I'm also a little tensed since Lee Chan actually threw a fist at Joshua the last time. Joshua is really a gentleman. He didn't even report Lee Chan to the school authority. I hope Lee Chan doesn't do anything rash like that again.

I wasn't able to think about what Joshua had told me that day. Now that I think about it, I feel so nervous. What do I do now? Does he actually like me? The guy.... the popular guy of school on whom I have a crush on likes me. Must be a dream. But it isn't since Lee Chan punched him for that. Since we both like each other does that mean we will be dating? But after the Ming Hao incident I don't think that would be possible. And because of mom's death this Joshua thing skipped my mind, and I haven't told Seung Kwan about it as well. He would've given me a good advice. What should I do now?

Lee Chan is outside my classroom as I enter. I hear someone loudly saying my name and I look up at him. It's Joshua. Before I could say anything, I see Lee Chan dashing into the room and grabbing Joshua's collar to punch him again. Shit!!!