My Annoying Brother

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18.

Jeong Han POV:

I'm the older one so I never got the attention I needed. Joshua was always privileged. And I... I was always left alone even though Joshua and I are twins. No matter what I did Joshua was the one who was perfect. No matter how many certificates of academic excellence I got they said Joshua was being an all-rounder by joining sports.

I ignored them ignoring me. Whatever I liked, Joshua had his eyes on them. And in the end even if it breaks my heart Joshua would get them as he wants. So, I even stopped liking things. Joshua never let me make friends and I ended up being all alone throughout all these years. Everybody in school think that Joshua is such a good guy, he is a gentleman, but they don't know that a devil resides underneath that mask. He likes attention. He pretends to be a good person around everybody else. Only I know what kind of monster he is.

I know everyone thinks that I'm a bad person and cold hearted. But I just don't want anyone to associate with me because Joshua won't let me get along to others.

New semester. Same shit again. Girls drooling over Joshua and me. Me brushing them off coldly and Joshua rejecting them in a gentle way. But it seems a new disaster is coming in our lives. A new girl I bumped into. 

I'd been observing her for a while now. I can't help myself. I find myself staring at her unintentionally. I think about her. I think I like her. But I can't let Joshua know this. Joshua came to me and told me that he likes her.

I found a letter in my desk, it's from her. It says she wants to meet me in the rooftop. Does this mean that she also likes me? Is she going to confess to me? But I cannot accept her. I cannot do this.

She did ask me out. I don't feel like brushing her off or giving her a cold shoulder. But I think Joshua also saw the letter since he is standing there by the door of the rooftop. It pains me so much to say all these harsh things to her. But there is nothing else I can do.

It turned out that she is Lee Chan's younger sister. And it seems like Lee Chan knows something about Joshua. What is it that he knows? Does he know the truth about him? The real Joshua? Or is it just a misunderstanding? I don't want to know anymore since she decided to date Joshua. Again, I lost something. I couldn't fight this time as well.