Forbidden Desires

07: WHAT ARE WE?

A/n: Purely authors imagination. None of these really happens in real life.

Risa Pov

"WHAT?!!" I said loudly, they all looked at me, confused. I don't care if I'm being overacting but I need clarification to all, Ms. Guo is her niece and Liseldo is her brother, so he is her uncle. Why would he kiss Alice? And what?Alicia's future fiance, wife? This ain't real, punyeta!

Tumingin ako sa direction ni Alice  pero umiwas siya ng tingin. I clenched my fist. I feel betrayed though I know myself we are nothing but an enemy.

"What do you mean, "what" madam senator?" It was Sen Imee.  I was lost in thoughts, I don't know how to respond to her question so I just put myself in a steady and calm expression.

I was holding back my tears. "Ms. Guo is getting married?" My grips tightened. Please, No!

"Ah, yes po, Madam Senator... Probably, if she fixes her issues and allegations, My Ali and I will get married after." It was the girl, Donya and reach Alice's hand. I watch how they intertwined it right on top of the table.

"Ah, I see...Congratulations then, Ms. Guo and?" I asked trying to stay unbothered
"Donalyn Tesoro po, Madam Chair. You can call me, Donya for short." She smiled sweetly. I hate her.

"You guys are so sweet, bagay kayo." Sen Win proclaimed, they just laughed it out. Pain pain pain!

When our food arrived, everyone was now busy minding their own businesses. I lost my appetite and watched them all eating their prospective foods. I glance at Ms. Guo and Tesoro's at saktong nagsubuan sila ng pagkain.

Mixed emotions were running through me. Anger, sadness, betrayed and regression. If I knew it all then, would I ever allow her to touch me? I felt a pang of pain real hard. How could she do this when she has a fiance already?

"Hey! Don't you like the food?" Nagtatakang tanong ni Leny na siyang ikinaagaw ng atensyon ng lahat maging si Loren at Win na ngayon ay nagaalala na. I placed my eyes on the food. Kanina ko pa pala iniikot ikot yung pasta sa tinidor, I got distracted really hard pala.

"If you don't want it, I can order you a new one" Sen Loren sounds concerned.

"Ah no...may I excuse myself to you guys." Hindi ko na inantay pa ang sagot nila at tumayo na ako agad, narinig ko pa ang pagtawag sa akin nila Leny, Loren At Win but I'm too hurt to look back as my tears were about to fall down.

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Yung kaninang gutom ko ay nawala at napalitan ng sakit. My tears just keep falling and make my breath heavier that I could barely exhaled air. My chest is in pain, pakiramdam ko ay sinaksak ako ng paulit-ulit sa puso.

My foot brought me to a part of Batanes, a greenery. I can see the full view of verdant mountains, rolling hills and native houses from up there. This is breathtaking, the cold wind was blowing on me that soothes away those painful feelings inside me.

I was just appreciating the view when a hands of somebody just wrapped up through my waist. I froze, umurong bigla yung luha ko at napalitan ng takot. Hinoholdup ba ako?omgg!

"W-wala po akong dalang pera, nasa room ko po." I nervously said. Narinig kong tumawa ng mahina yung nakabackhug saken kaya nilingon ko ito. Nagbago bigla ang aura ko as I've found out who it was. Alice Guo, if I would have known...

"May nang-holdaper bang namba-backhug?" Natatawa niyang saad, sinamaan ko siya ng tingin na dahilan upang matanggal ang pagkakayakap niya. "After what happened earlier, here you go again, acting like it doesn't matter" I knew I sounded sarcastic and bitter.

"What are we, Ms. Aliceth Alicia Leal Guo?" My tears started to fall down again, I can't hold it back anymore. Hindi ako ganito sa iba e, I have never been like this to anyone whom I got linked with pero sa kanya ang tanga-tanga ko, nanghihina ako at nasasaktan niya ako.

"I'm sorry." Is that it? Sorry? That's not what I want to hear.
"how could you?" Taksil tong luha ko, ayaw tumigil. Ang sakit, punyeta! "You made me believe that you have no one in your life. I was foolish and dumbfounded to let you ruin me even though we have nothing to feel that way yet!" Tinulak tulak ko siya and she just let me. Galit ako, galit na galit! Kahit alam kong wala akong karapatan, nagagalit pa rin ako!

"Hiwalay na po kami ni Donya noong araw na nagkakilala tayo. Wala na pong kami, nandito lang po siya para samahan ako dahil sobrang bigat na po ng paratang niyo saken" Dalawa na kaming umiiyak. Napasinghal ako ng mapait.

"Eh ano yung pagsubuan niyo ng pagkain kanina, yung paghawakan niyo ng kamay at yung mga tinginan niyo na parang mahal na mahal niyo pa rin ang isa't isa, ano yon?!" Wow, just wow. Nagseselos ako? OO. "Sabihin mo nga saken? Mahal mo pa rin ba siya?" please, sabihin mong hindi na, pleasee!!

When she didn't respond immediately. I knew it, she still love her. Ouch!

Tumingin lang ako sa kanya habang naguunahan ang mga luha ko. So ano yong atin? Wala lang yon sayo?

"Hindi mo ba kinakaya ang sakit para maghanap ka ng dalawang makapitan?" Mapakla kong saad. masakit eh, sobra. "Sabihin mo nga, ano ba tayo, Ms Guo?" Give me a good answer Ms. Guo, sabihin mong may mas malamin na pagtingin ka saken. Please, I'm begging you.

"An enemy, my asset and nothing more." That sentence echoed repeatedly in my ears. I slapped her real hard. I put my fierce and calm expression to what I'm used  to before, pero ang sakit talaga punyeta!

"I was willing to sacrifice and give up my career and reputation just for you...but I'm taking it back now, you deserve to be destroyed too." I said coldly. "Kung ano man ang namagitan sating dalawa, I hope hanggang dun nalang yon. Let's pretend to not know each other and remain enemies." Her eyes are swollen now, it looks tired and heavy, so do I. She stayed silent, as I continued speaking. "Please, don't ever come close to me again. Don't ever cross the line, just stay where you are and leave me alone." I left her.

As my back faced her, she reached out for my hand. "I'm sorry po, Madam Chair. Aayusin ko muna ang lahat, babalikan kita kung pwede pa." She then let go of me. Pakiramdam ko ay napakaraming laway ang nakaharang sa lalamunan ko para pigilan nito ang paghinga ko.

Nang makalayo ako ay saka na nag-unahan ulit ang mga luha ko. Mas masakit pala mag bid ng goodbyes pag alam niyong walang kayo pero may magandang pinagsamahan kahit sa unting panahon lang.

'Aantayin ko ang araw na yon, Ms. Guo. Aayusin muna natin 'to bago magsimula ulit. Sisiguraduhin kong akin ka lang talaga.'

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A/n: Sorry po. Masakit ba? Huhuhu diba sabi nila, kapalit ng sarap ay sakit? Masyado lang akong nag-stick sa pain after happiness. Bawi me next life, huhuhuhu chars! Look forward to the next chapter y'all! Pero sa tingin niyo, ano na kayang mangyayare kay Alice? Sasaya pa kaya buhay nila after nung nangyare? Curious? Stay tuned! Lovelots🫶