Ourans Idol (haruhi x fem! reader)

18

After classes were done the next day, I went to the cub room. It was time to face the music. My heart was pounding in my chest, same as it was before my first show. I wasn't able to get out of club meetings for more than a day due to tamaki being insistent that I need to participate even if I'm having the twins give me some space for everything right now. And I hate to admit it, but he's right. I can't avoid everyone forever, especially since they know where to find me. If not in school, they can easily get my address from kyoya. Not sure if he'd actually give it out right now with all things considered, but I wouldn't put him past it.

I stepped into the club room and saw people decorating it like an Arabian kingdom for today's theme. Kaoru hesitantly came up to me. "Y/n senpai, we've got a costume for you too- you don't have to wear it, but the boss would appreciate it if you did-"

"It's okay Kaoru. I'll wear it. Is it in the changing rooms?"

"Yeah. We have a bag with your name on it with the costume inside. It should fit fine."

"Thanks." Kaoru was closer to earning my forgiveness than his brother, mostly due to the fact I could see the regret more clearly in his eyes. I still wanted my space from him, sure, but seeing as he was close to crying when I yelled at them, he really did feel bad. 

Hikaru looked more embarrassed he was being yelled at than anything, but he seemed to feel at least a little bad too. But for the most part, I think he was upset for being scolded, not only by me, but the whole club too. 

Haruhi came in, a little pink in the face seeing me. I smiled at her, and hoped things wouldn't be awkward. She walked over to me, a smile on her face. "Hey senpai. How's everything?"

"Well, other than avoiding the twins as much as possible, I'm more than a little upset that they told my secret. I get the club for the most part already knew, but still, there's a reason nobody brought it up." 

"... Senpai?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you like being an idol?"'

"I love it. It's been my dream since I was a little girl. Seeing people dance and sing like that, something lit up inside of me seeing that. I wanted to inspire others, but I knew I wanted to be able to live a life outside of it too. That's why I created the Suki persona. Keep things separated. I worked hard to get to my dream, achieve my goals, and I work hard to make sure I can be part of most of it all. The song writing, producing, choreography, costume design and makeup, and who I work with when I get offers to feature in songs, or help others. It's because of those people who took chances on me, people who helped me that I am where I am today. It would be unfair of me to not offer those who were in my situation any different. I love what I do haruhi, but I like being just me when I walk off that stage. Not have to overly worry about how I look off it, because off it I'm just me. I'm just glad that nothing spread past the walls of this room. I don't think I'd handle it well if all of a sudden all eyes were on the real me."

She was silent for a minute, processing my words. "I think the world would love to meet the real you on stage. I like the real you a lot better than the Suki you. I think the rest of the world will too." I blush a little. 

"Thank you haruhi... Maybe one day. When I'm fully grown and all, I'll do that. I think it's almost time I merge them, especially since if word gets out about who I am off stage, I want it to be from me, and not the words of others."

"That'd be really cool. And hey, even if it doesn't go as planned, you have all of us with you. Even the twins, although they messed up." We laugh a little before going to change. We had stopped while we talked, and now we had to get ready for the club to open. Tamaki would have our heads if we were late for the club opening because we were talking instead of changing.