He Told Me I Have No Heart [BL] [E-Book on MEB]

CHAPTER 8 : A Night of Memories

After confessing his inner feelings on the first day of the play's opening, everything didn't go as planned. What he was confident about—that Boat felt the same way—turned out to be the opposite. This threw Vee off balance for quite a while. Since that day, he has tried to maintain a slightly greater distance between himself and Boat. Although he still liked the other person, he became quite anxious. He wasn't sure if he should continue behaving as before or if this was enough.

In reality, Vee wanted more than this relationship. Boat treated him as if he had feelings for him, and it wasn't just Vee thinking this alone. The people around him agreed that Boat acted almost as if he was already Vee's boyfriend. But when everyone learned of the younger one's answer, they were all equally confused.

What kind of brothers...

It took Vee about a Veek to start accepting that the story betVeen him and Boat could only be this much. They could only be brothers; it could only be one-sided love. They couldn't cross this dividing line. Although he knew this, Vee wasn't about to give up. He didn't want to quit easily. His firm intention now was that if he wanted something, he had to get it. It might be slow, but he had to make it happen.

Buzzz...

"May, when do you get off work?" Vee asked as soon as the other person answered the phone.

(Soon)

"Want to drink tonight?"

(Sure, I'm off tomorrow)

"Okay, meet at the usual place."

(Who else is coming?)

"Right now, it's just you and me."

(Boring as hell, just the two of us.)

"Who else do you want me to invite? Acting like we have a lot of friends."

(Try inviting Muan Fan?)

"Okay, okay. The more, the merrier."

(Should we invite Boat too?)

"..."

Vee fell silent when his close friend mentioned the person he had just managed to distance himself from. Although there was still a slight sting left, he couldn't deny that besides meeting at the theater, they hardly had any chance to go anywhere together outside of that time. Part of him wanted to have close moments like before, but another part feared he couldn't handle it.

(What do you want to do?)

"It's up to you."

(Okay, okay)

He threw the responsibility of deciding to the other person because he didn't know which answer to choose. He was still confused in his heart. If asked whether he still felt good and still liked Boat, the answer was yes. But if asked if he was afraid of his own heart, that was also yes. But if asked whether his feelings had reached the point of love yet, the answer was probably no. He wanted to see Boat's face every day when he woke up, be happy being together, talking together, until he wanted to have Boat by his side all the time.

That night, after Vee agreed to invite Muan Fan and Boat to the bar they usually frequented, his heart beat irregularly. The closer it got to the meeting time, the more anxious he felt. He was afraid he wouldn't know how to act when he saw Boat's face.

He hoped that tonight would give them a chance to become close again. After he revealed his feelings, everything seemed to get worse. Tonight might help fix the distance in their relationship.

At first, he was secretly worried that Boat wouldn't come as invited, because before this, he had tried to invite him, but it seemed the other person was trying to maintain distance since learning that he liked him. So he didn't expect much that the younger one would come to the bar tonight. But when May texted back saying Boat had agreed to come, just that was enough to make everything seem chaotic for Vee.