Dear, My Kings (MxMxMxM)

Chapter 19: The Toxic Cocktail 

My eyes scanned the book, only knowing a few of the common words. However my eyes always drifted to the pictures of flowers and leaves, even some roots. The diagram made me realize how magnificent plants were, their leaves standing up tall in the sun, their roots running deep in the soil. If only I could read the words on the pages, I'm certain they hold more knowledge than Mrs. Clara's head.

It was a wonderful book, even if the letters made jumbles. With every flip of the page, the powerful old wood with a mix of leather smell hits my pointy nose that crinkled in delight. I'm positive I found my favorite smell next to the dewy mornings.

"Skyler, can you not read?" My wide eyes snapped to his red ones, however he was still looking down at his book.

"What?" I grab my green tea that Cassius had me try, it was a cocktail of sorts, many healing herbs mixed in with a dash of honey. It was surprisingly sweet and oddly comforting.

"Your eyes bounce around on the page and you also flip the page when I do." Cassius flipped the page of his book. My chest tightened and my gaze shifted away from the man's tall frame, to the book in my lap. Shame filled my entire body and I started to feel paralyzed.

"I can read, however I'm not the strongest reader." My voice was quiet as a mouse in a kitchen with a cat.

"I'll get you a tutor. You have all the time in the world at your disposal, might as well further your education." Cassius said it like he was talking about the weather. The tightness in my chest released at his tone. He wasn't making this some type of big scene, however he should. A ruler that can't even read correctly is not a strong ruler.

"Oh thank you!" My eyes shined brightly. "I always wanted to know how to read properly, I just never had the chance to learn." He hummed and nodded, flipping to the next page too soon.

"Well you can learn whatever you want now, you will also be forced to study important subjects. Nothing too difficult, just things the queen- I mean king should know." He finally looked my way and shifted unconditionally in his chair. Tension started to build, and I didn't know why. Cassius' jaw ticked as his fingers started to tap on the chair's leather armrest. My head cocked slightly at his odd behavior.

"Is that what I will technically be? The queen?"

"Yes, you'll take on the responsibility that my mother holds now." Cassius relaxed a little more in his chair. He shut his book and put it on the end table. His focus was completely on me now, I was uncertain how I felt about that. "Don't worry, my father doesn't make her do much. He loves her dearly, and hates to share her stress, so he only made her only able to stress about her outfit of the day."

"Really?" A smile creeped onto my face as I remembered how the king looked to his beloved, like she was the center of his own universe.

"Yes, you'll also have a very relaxed life with the way you have my brothers wrapped around your little finger." Cassius' deep chuckle filled the library as he grabbed his cup of a liquid that no longer steamed.

"Darius definitely, however I don't think Atticus is wrapped around my finger." I giggle a little at his ridiculous statement.

"My older brother has always been hard to read, he's mostly void of emotions if he doesn't like you. How is he with you?"

"Well he's nice to me, even made my bed." As the sentence left my mouth I saw Cassius' eyes widen only slightly before he really started laughing. He bent over and held his abdomen.

"That's hilarious, however I understand why." He shrugged his shoulders as he slowly stopped laughing. I lean in forwards making him raise his perfect eyebrows at me.

"Darius said it's a vampire thing?" I made my voice into a whisper. I wasn't sure if this was a sacred secret for vampires considering Darius didn't go too far into it.

"Yes it's an instinct of course. Since you are human and we are vampires, it is biologically engraved into us to protect and watch over our human beloved. Vampires don't need to sleep regularly like humans, thousands of years ago the vampire would normally go about their day as their lover slept. Most had jobs outside the home at night, to rake in the money. We take great pride in providing for our lover. When the vampires left the home, the church and priests entered and killed the mortal lover."

"That's so sad." I was listening intently to his explanation.

"So now, our skins crawl at the idea our lover is sleeping somewhere unsafe. However, the only safe place we feel is by our side." So is that why Darius is so clingy? His skin crawls with me not by his side. Is it crawling now? Is he in pain or panicked?

"What about Atticus making my bed?"

"I think it's something primal, from our bat side. I haven't experienced it, but I think it's something like when an animal nests? I can't be too sure." Wait, does that mean he has felt the crawling sensation before? The need to watch me sleep, or perhaps someone else? Is he interested in another person, is that truly why he was so hostile from the start? I don't know why but I really didn't like the angry feeling building up in me.

It bubbled and bubbled the longer it sat in front of him. Other emotions started to get mixed in like a fancy cocktail.

Uncertainty

Insecure

Sadden

Anxiety

And the biggest emotion

Rage

It all mixed together into a deep green toxic drink called jealousy. An emotion I wasn't sure I had, at least not towards a person. I didn't like how I was feeling, however I couldn't stop my heart from clenching. The feeling of dread and stupidity hit me like an ax cutting through a tree. I felt so uneasy and uncomfortable as my own heart started to constrict into itself. I needed to calm myself, it's only been two days of knowing them. Why is my mind acting this way? I'm sure it can't be healthy. However I couldn't stop it from hurting.... And the rage I felt towards someone I don't even know.

"Do you think it's too early for a bath?" Yes, a bath will solve all my anxiety right now. I could just relax and wash away all these unsavory feelings away.

"You can simply do anything you want, I bet if you ask for a person's head my psychotic younger brother would put a bow on it before giving it to you." A bow? What an odd thing to do, for such a horrendous request.

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