Hazbin one shots

scars

Plot
Charlie discovers lucifers depression and his self harm

Angst and S/H warning

Lucifer sat at his desk with mountains of paperwork around him, he had hit one of his depressed spells which had led to him cutting yet again. A reminder to himself for screwing up and ruining everything good that was in his life, the blade clattered to the floor as he leaned back in his chair and threw his head back with a groan of frustration. His arms littered with cuts from his knife, some just flesh wounds others deep and almost to the bone, but in his mind it's what he deserved. The blood oozed out of his cuts and ran down his arms and puddled up on the floor making his sight go a bit blurry. Deciding to just close his eyes and rest some he eventually dozed off.
About an hour later the door to his room opened as Charlie poked her head in.
"Dad?" She called out not getting a response before catching sight of him still sleeping in the chair. She smiled some as she walked into the room, seeing all the papers she sighed some figuring he was overworking himself again. She moved beside him and seen his chest rise and fall steadily as he slept in the chair.
"Let's get you to bed" she said as she reached down and grabbed arm to throw over her shoulder to lift him but stopped with she heard a groan from him, it was a pained groan. She looked at his face taking notes of how it scrunched up some before relaxing a little after she stopped and then it hit her harder, her hand was...wet?
She looked down and her brain halted as she looked at all the cuts on his arm and the blood slowly seeping out before she noticed the puddles of it on the floor and the blade her foot was on. Rapidly piecing Everything together her head turned up to him as she realized he did this to himself. She let go of his arm before quickly moving around his room and the piles of ducks to get to the bathroom, every room in the hotel had a first aid kit for medical emergencies in The first cabinet on the left. She grabbed the box and dashed back across the room before shoving the papers off into the floor and opening it and grabbed a roll of gauze to wrap his arms with. She worked quick and efficient on things thankful that Vaggie had offered to train the staff on basic wound treatments. Soon his arms were wrapped and she sighed before closing the kit she moved back and put his arm around his shoulder and lifted him from his chair, rather surprised at how light he was. She carried him over to his bed and gently placed him down before grabbing a cover and laying it over him. Charlie looked down at her father a bit sadly before she moved and sat down in the chair he had at his desk, she wasn't going to leave him. Pulling out her phone she sent Vaggie a quick text saying she had something to take care of, her phone soon singed with a reply before she read it and put it back into her pocket, she reached down and grabbed her dad's hand and waiting now.
Minutes turned to an hour which turned to hours. But after the 3rd hour he finally groaned some and rolled his head to the side which pulled Charlie from her sleepy daze.
"Dad...come on wake up" she said softly while getting up from the chair. She looked down at him as his eyes slowly opened and started to look around some before seeing her, and at first nothing happened, but then as if he remembered what he was doing his eyes shot open as he quickly sat up in bed putting on a fake smile.
"Hey Charlie! Did I over sleep again. Ah silly me, get downstairs and ill...." he stopped as he put a hand up and noticed the bandages along his arms now. He took a moment before slowly lowering his arm and his head and now looking at the mattress.
"I...I know what your gonna say charlie..how could I do this to myself" he said softly before feeling a hand on his shoulder.
"Im worried about you dad...I..why did you do this?" She asked as lucifer didn't even look up at her..how could he, seeing the look of pain on her face..or what he assumed was there.
"Im a failure Charlie" he started off after a moment of silence trying to figure out what to say.
"I failed at raising you, failed at protecting my people. Everything I've done I've failed at...and this..is my reminder of the mistakes that I have made"
"Dad..your not a failure, yes you've made mistakes but who hasn't, I've made my own, recently with my deal with Alastor" she muttered out at the end only to have lucifers head snap up at her direction now.
"Come again!?"
"No..no..not the time dad"
"You made a deal with that bell boy!"
"Dad...not now"
"Dont worry I can get you out"
"DAD!" She shouted at him now making him jump some and look at her before she closed her eyes and took a breath.
"We can talk about that later but don't use that to change the subject. Talk to me, I want to help you" she said with a little smile which was rather catching as lucifer gave one as well before sighing some.
"Ok appleseed...I'll tell you" he said before letting it out, starting with his life before the fall, then the happiness he had when she was born and then the utter pain and depression when he failed her and she wouldn't talk to him. All the way up to current day.
"Wait wait..your dating Al!?"
"Well not anymore...how dare that prick do that to my appleseed" he said as he balled his fist up.
"Im sorry you've had to go through all that dad, but it's time to let go of the past and move on..what if you went to far and killed yourself, I'd never be able to live with myself" she said as she moved and hugged him, and it was then that lucifer realized that hurting himself was hurting others around him that he cared for, being stuck in the rut and not letting himself be happy or move forwards.
"Oh Charlie..I'm sorry" he said before returning the hug.
"I..was afraid to let myself be happy, every time I have, I ruin it and just makes my depression get even worse" he said as he held her hug. It wasn't a fix but it was at least a start, admitting it was a big step in Charlie's book.
"And...don't hate Al, it was my choice to make the deal. I needed the information dad"
"Im still mad at him.." he mumbled out