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Blood Orange Periphery

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My suicide had been two years in the making when I decided not to follow through at the last minute. Over the past decade, I've written poems, books, short stories, fanfiction and hundreds of thousands of words, but nothing felt complete. This coll...

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Word Stories

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by PienPouwels

by PienPouwels

Written between 2013 and 2015 (and lightly edited recently)

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Kiss me like you mean it.
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Messy thoughts,
messy hair,
messy life.
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Six floors down,
she regretted it.
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Scars:
our life stories in braille.
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I made love.
He just fucked.
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We'll grow old,
just not together.
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I have mixed drinks about feelings.
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Three words,
but the middle changed.
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Overdoses on anxiety medication.
Dies fearless.
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She danced through fire,
and laughed.
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Some names will always taste bitter.
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No monsters here,
no heroes either.
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Two hearts,
one mine,
both yours.
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Fun personality found in liquor bottle.
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Vodka never said, "I hate you."
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I will not be your sometimes.
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Went to war,
decided to stay
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"Why aren't we talking anymore?" ✓Seen
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Wish I'd known that was goodbye.
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Sooner or later,
you'll regret the things you didn't say
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I'd hate you
if I could.
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Sad with you,
sad without you.
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You can practice love on me.
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We discovered ourselves
in each other.
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You hide your sadness so well.
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In retrospect, I preferred the lie.
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It wasn't love,
only wishful thinking.
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Your definition of forever
was a lot shorter than mine.
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He liked her with long hair
so she cut it short.
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Even the prettiest flower can be poisonous.
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You destroyed me
and I let you.
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"I love you." ✓Seen
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They lived happily ever after,
seperately.
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Your lips are golden
and I want to be filthy rich.
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And then she said,
"I dare you."
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Some days,
managing to get out of bed is enough.
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