Walking on eggshells - that's how it felt to talk to Ryan. Every word, every gesture, had to be carefully calibrated, anticipated, and analyzed. I had to consider multiple potential reactions, weighing each sentence like a delicate scale.
Each conversation was a minefield, where one misstep could detonate an explosion of anger, defensiveness, or hurt. My mind raced ahead, predicting his responses, adjusting my tone, and softening my language.
The tension was suffocating, like holding my breath underwater. I couldn't be myself, couldn't speak freely, for fear of triggering a reaction. Every phrase was a calculated gamble, a fragile balancing act.
My thoughts swirled in a vortex of "what ifs": What if he misinterprets this? What if that phrase hurts him? What if...
The constant self-censorship drained me, leaving my words hollow, my interactions stilted. Our conversations became a scripted dance, with me performing a precarious ballet of avoidance.
"My god, why all the secrecy?" Blake asked, his voice low in the darkness of the empty parking lot.
I sighed, the weight of my situation settling heavily on my shoulders. "Ryan."
Blake's voice was firm, urgent. "(y/n), you need to leave Ryan. He's toxic, dangerous . You deserve better. You've changed so much since you started dating him, You're withdrawn, hesitant. You used to shine, (y/n). Now you're just existing."
I shook my head, tears welling up. "I love him, Blake. I can't just-"
"Is it love, or are you just scared?" Blake's words cut deep. "You know what he's capable of. Last time you tried to leave, he pressed a gun to your head."
I winced at the memory, my heart racing. "That was just a moment of desperation. He's sorry now."
Blake's expression turned incredulous. "Sorry? (y/n), that's not love. That's control. You're trapped in a nightmare."
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𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭 || 𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀
Fanfic❝No one will ever hurt you again. You're mine to protect,❞ he whispered, his lips brushing against my ear. ❝Mine to possess.❞ His grip tightened, sending shivers down my spine. ❝I love you, (y/n).,❞ he rasped, his voice dripping with obsession. ❝Lov...