Healing through pain || shivian story

Chapter 14:

tw: ed, sh, violence!!!!

The next day, Vivian desperately needed to talk to Siobhan. She dropped off Jamie and to her surprise, Siobhan was at Agatha's desk, explaining the new rules put in place.

V: hello!

Siobhan sighs, 'hello Vivian'

V: there is lots of chatter about a nursery merger but I'm guessing you can't saying anything

She says with a wink

S: im sure it will come up in our next meeting.

V: oh about that! Are you free for a meeting today?

S: um I'm covering at Reece's nursery so if you are free we can hold the meeting there?

V: perfect

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They walk into the meeting room near Reece's office

S: is there an issue with the new merge? It's not too far from here but is there any way we can support you?

Siobhan says coldly and with a professional approach.

V: Bon, you know that's not why I needed to talk to you.

S: hm

V: what's going on? Please I'm worried your my friend

She grabs Siobhan's hands and looked into her hand as she walks them towards the table, they sit opposite each other, hands still intertwined. Their stomachs filled with butterflies.

S: I'm sorry about the other day-

V: no, don't ever say that, don't apologise.
What's going on?

S: I'm..trapped.

V: what do you mean?

S: with him, I'm stuck.

V: oh Siobhan, you're safe.

S: I'm not, not with him; he is-

She allows a few tears to fall for a moment, feeling weak.

V: it's ok, just please tell me. You can trust me.

S: he is so controlling and manipulative. He dictates over me and my life. He doesn't respect me in the slightest, he only wants to dominate me. He is so toxic and creates insecurity and suffocates me with it. I haven't eaten in days, I can't. He is insanely jealous and possessive over me. He won't stop no matter what, if I beg he will beat me more, if I cry or god forbid scream. He is irrational and obsessive. He doesn't trust me and it's emotionally draining and I'm just unable to leave. I'm trapped.

She splutters out quickly, her mind raising faster than her mouth could keep up.

V: oh Bon I'm so sorry.

Siobhan slams her head down onto the table and all she can do is cry. Vivian walks over to her and sits beside rubbing her back. Siobhan sits up, tears falling from her face as her vision goes blurry and viv's voices echoes around her. She awakes surrounded by Carly, sorshca and Vivian.

S: what is this?

V: Siobhan you fainted. Carly pass me that glass of water, please, thank you.

So: you ok Siobhan?

V: all good guys, I'll take care of it.

They walk out and Siobhan slowly sits up.

V: please eat, your blood sugars are dangerously low.

Siobhan takes a small bite but immediately gags

S: I can't

She whispers, taking a sip of the water.

Roger storms in, Siobhan immediately jumping up and fixing her posture.

R: what's this? You're passing out on the job now? Honestly siobh-

Roger notices Vivian in the corner.

R: ah hello! I'm roger, who are you?

V: I'm Vivian, I'm a parent here and a nurse. Keep an eye on her

R: oh I will, trust me.

He glares at Siobhan.

R: let's go

He mutters as Siobhan trails behind him, looking back vivian as a silent cry for help.

Roger was silent on the way home. This terrified Siobhan
They walk into the house, Siobhan walks directly upstairs.

Suddenly Roger snatches Siobhan back down the stairs. He grabs her by the throat and holds her againest the wall.

R: your pathetic.

Siobhan nods in agreement, she was weak. She thinks to herself

R: I'm going to the bar. I will be back in half an hour.

He seethed, finally letting go of Siobhan's neck leaving her gasping for air on the floor as he slams the door behind him.

She dragged herself up stairs and runs directly to the bathroom. She locks the door as it slams shut. She turns on the shower and steps in, the hot water covering her in a warm embrace, all she could do was cry. Sitting in the showers floor wrapped in water as her emotions consumed her.
This was Siobhan's only source of comfort, the only way she could truly be who she wanted, talking about her interests for hours whilst the waters run blocking out dark memories; or where she can show true emotions.
Her hair now a dark brunette, soaking wet. She begins to shave over her silky skin, shinning in the glistening water. Roger hated body hair, it "wasn't lady like". Siobhan wincing as the razor blade running over the sore bruises. She just wanted this to stop, she needed a distraction. A thought creeps into Siobhan minds, she closes her eyes tightly, pleading for the thought so disappear. She opens her eyes and her thighs slashed. Siobhan cowers as warm water seeps into the wounds, this was pain she could control. She has nothing to control in her life, expect this.

She gets herself cleaned up, she feels sick. Yet she likes it, she finally has control over something in her life.

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