Chapter 19:

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Chapter 19: tw: suicide and Emetophobia

Vivian quickly dialling Siobhan's number as she drives to her shift. Voicemail.

V: Bon it's Viv, Roger just came looking for you. Please be safe, I'm about got go into my shift bonbon x

She hits send. Hopefully she was safe...

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Siobhan sitting at the bar, empty drinks piling cup next to her. Angry tears flowing down her cheeks.

Sa: I think you have had enough for tonight Siobhan

S: no Sara. Please.

Sa: it's not healthy, legally I can't, your already at the limit

S: one more. Please.

Siobhan felt so weak and helpless, she just needed something to numb her mind, she found that alcohol was the only way it would listen and let her mind go silent. Her words slurred and in whispers

Sa: one more and that's it.

S: thank you..

She finishes the last glass and stumbles out the bar, her watch reading '19:37'

Damn it. She was late, but she didn't care anymore. She was on her final strand. She would leave without permission and face the consequences later on, it didn't matter now.

It was a brisk October evening, the sunsetting earlier and earlier, darkness surrounded her as she staggered home. A strange car parked outside the house. She fumbled into the house and silence, nothing. Roger wasn't waiting with his fists clenched. She stumbles up stairs and opens her bedroom door, Roger was there, he wasn't alone.

S: Roger?

Roger looks up, messy hair and a dark lipstick smudged over his lips and neck.
Siobhan's eyes pour as she trembles in floods of tears

S: Janice?

J: oh Roger! You said she wasn't gonna be home.

She whined playfully.

R: it's fine, we can go to yours, Siobhan get over here now.

Siobhan shaking, sobbing walks over to him as he throws her to the floor.

R: let's head over, leave her here, she's pathetic.

Staring Siobhan up and down as she crumbles onto the floor. Siobhan scrambles to her feet and finally breaks down in anger, she runs down the stairs and out the front door chasing Roger and Janice down the road. On the dimly light street she screams..

S: how could you. You're an abuser. A cheater and vile man and horrible father and boyfriend! Why! Why do you hate me and torment me but stay with me just to spite me?! You're pathetic, not me. You!

The smell of alcohol on her own breath sends her into shivers, reminding her off all the times Roger would wreak of it. A hard sting meets Siobhan's face.

R: Janice, go to yours I'll meet you there, seems Siobhan has forgotten her place.

Janice responds with a flirty wink and grin as she strolls away down the street.

R: I have given you so many chances Siobhan. You're gonna listen and pay now.

S: NO! DONT TOUCH ME

As she grabs Roger and pulls him down to the floor. She forgets her own strength considering she never used it. She was clearly intoxicated.

Siobhan screams as Roger drags her down pinning her to the pavement, throwing her down, cutting and scrapping her skin, her face covered in blood. She slaps him back, this didn't stop him, only provoked him. He rips her up by her hair and throws his hands around her neck. His hands wrapping around the blondes neck, she goes limp and falls to the ground. Roger kicks her as a final punishment and leaves her left of her lawn. Bleeding and bruised. Unconscious and defeated.

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C: Finally the day is over, fancy coming over for a bit?

Mi: I could use a smo- I mean drink

R: I thought you were quitting

Mi: well I had a change of heart!

Marjorie and Reece rolls their eyes. As they make their way out the nursery and towards Charlotte's house, they hear a scream.

M: um ok what was that?

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Siobhan wakes up, and instantly hunches over to vomit. She gags as blood spits from her mouth. She stumbles back into the house, into the bathroom. Her vision slowly becoming blurry and darker. She grabs all the pills she can find, her blade and a bottle of wine. She hobbles out the door and begins to run, she doesn't care where, she just needs to leave. Her legs aching, she stumbles and trips into a field, peaceful and calm as Siobhan's sobs echo through it. Her wrists slit as she bleeds out, crashing to the floor, swallowing as many pills as wine spills on the ground. She screams in pure rage, perhaps too loud.

S: please, please kill me, please let this kill me. Let this be the end of this. I can't marry him, I can't.. I can't..

As she passed out cold, left bleeding on the cold damp grass.

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Writers note:
Sorry gang....

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