Healing through pain || shivian story

Chapter 17:

chapter 17:

The next day she needed to cover there again. she couldn't even think about it. All she could think about was the weight on her finger, weighing her down, dragging her back to Roger.

She felt cold hands slip around her waist, normally she was be repulsed by this but spins around and wraps her hands his neck, bringing them into a tight hug. Gaslighting herself into believing she was happy with him.

S: im sorry

She whispered

R: you're just finally appreciating me.

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Roger pulls into the nursery car park and drops off Siobhan. She sighs deeply and sheepishly walks towards the entrance of the nursery, greeted by Reece who rushes to say something but cut off by Siobhan's voice.

S: morning

As she walks off, ignoring any other noises. She walks into the office, met by Marjorie's concerned eyes, she sits down and Marjorie begins to speak, blocked out by the headphones she slips in. She didn't have the energy, nor did she care.

Siobhan begins to update the system as she feels a gentle tap on her shoulder. She spins her head around to meet Marjorie's gaze. God she was relentless, Did they all have to bother me?

S: just leave me alone and don't touch me.

She says as storms up breathing deeply into the hallway.

V: fancy seeing you here

Vivian.

S: well would you look at that.

V: funny that

She chuckles, Vivian realises Siobhan will talk about it when she is ready. This made Vivian so desirable to Siobhan. The glint behind Viv's eyes shows concern but her confidence gave Siobhan comfort without having to say a word. As the two began to talk more, Siobhan's hands rose to her hips, Vivian stopped talking.

S: Viv?

Shit. The ring.

V: oh um. I have to go but uh call me if you need-
congratulations..

She rushes off, tears invading her eyes, she had to be strong. It hurt.

S: Viv wait-

Tears found their way to Siobhan's eyes. It hurt too. She turns around to find Marjorie. Again.

M: is that an engagement ring?

S: if you have to ask that I must ask you is this your first day on earth-

She seethed, trying to conceal her sorrow feelings with anger. She did that a lot. She dashed away to the bathroom, bitter tears fell as she sobbed. She was so tired. Leaning over the sink begging for this moment to pass. Vivian, her only friend, gone.

Calm down Siobhan. Calm yourself

She whispers to herself.

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Viv pov:

I rushed away, I couldn't let Siobhan see me cry. She was dealing with so much already and I couldn't let her know how I truly felt about her. Love. I ran towards the exit, racing out and towards the car park wall, hidden, as I sob into my fists. All I wanted was her, to protect her, I am failing.
As I sob I smell a lingering scent. Smoke?

'you alright? You're Vivian, right?'

I look up to meet a gaze of a mean redhead, I pull myself together slightly wiping away tears.

V: oh hello, Mia is it? Just having a rough day

Mia exhaling a cloud of smoke, begins to gestures me over for a smoke. I wouldn't usually, but I didn't care. I needed it.

M: Charlotte hates smoking, that's why I do it here. You're a nurse, right?

V: yes, smoking is damaging but I honestly don't care, I miss the feeling.

I chuckle as I wipe away a few final tears.

M: Siobhan? That's why you're upset?

V: mhm, your good at reading people

M: I am, I like to have a pressure point on everyone

V: is that a good thing?

I let out a slight laugh and sigh, exhaling the smoke letting it fill the air surrounding us.

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The two stood talking for a while, time passed very quickly as they got to know each other.

V: you know, I think we are going to be very good friends.

M: I agree, so friend, what's wrong?

V: ugh, just Siobhan, I mean not her but stuff to do with her

Mi: Roger?

V: how did you know-

Mi: I grew up with the siblings and roger was like a dad in a way as I practically lived in their house. That man in action is terrifying.

V: oh

Mi: and the ring..?

V: you don't miss a trick do you?

Mi: nope

V: it just hurts, she trusts me and she needs help desperately. I don't know how to help and now they are engaged, it will finish her and it hurts me so much because I lo-

She clears her throat taking a deep drag of the cigarette.

Mi: well, in that case I think you should be involved in it.

V: what do you mean 'it'? Involved in what?

Mi: well yesterday whilst you tore into us about being casual and ignoring Siobhan's breaking point, we were talking about our plan to help her. We should have a meeting to discuss it with the others

V: sorry about that, I just didn't know what to do and plan? Yes, I want to help, I can help. How about Friday? I can find Jamie a baby sitter.

Mi: perfect

Mia smirks as Vivian smiles gratefully, she always could see past the cover of a person. She focussed on their eyes, the door to their soul.

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Charlotte looks out the window down onto the car park and notices smoke;

no one here smokes? Mia!

Charlotte exits the building and turns around the corner with her hands on her hips.

C: uh Amelia roberts! I thought you were quitting

Mia rushes to hide the cigarette playfully behind her back.

M: what you mean?

C: hm, I'm talking about this!

As she walks over to the redhead and whips the cigarette from behind her back, teasing her.

M: well.. I don't know how that got there.

She giggles as the two briefly kiss, Vivian admires their love. No judgment.

C: oh Vivian! I didn't see you there! Sorry! I didn't know you smoked

V: oh I don't, I used to be a heavy smoker but I'm a nurse now so you can imagine.

C: bad influence she is

Shooting a playful stare over at Mia and who has a child like grin over her face.

V: anyway! I have to go run some errands, I will see you Friday ..?

Mi: see you Friday

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