Yours

11

ABBY

We get to Billie's car and right as I'm about to tell Kelsey she can sit in the passenger seat; Billie opens the door for me, and I have no choice but to sit there. I give Kelsey a look saying, 'What do I do now?' and she shrugs and gets into the backseat right behind me. Billie gets into the driver's seat and starts connecting her phone and looking for music to play. 

"Do you guys have any song suggestions?" She asks looking between Kelsey and I. 

"I hope you know; the only right music choice is your music considering we're in your car and it's our first time in your car and I need to fangirl for a minute without seeming crazy". Kelsey tells her with the most serious look on her face. 

I look over at Billie and she's trying not to laugh. Not in a bullying way. More of a She's crazy but I love it kind of way. She looks at me and I nod. "She's right. It's the only music you should play right now". I agree while also trying not to laugh because of her reaction. 

She hands me her phone. "I have every one of my songs on my phone. The choice is yours" She smirks at me. I take her phone and scroll through every one of her songs, deciding on Bellyache. You can never ever go wrong with Bellyache. 

"Fuck yes!" Kelsey screams and sings along. I join her trying to forget Billie is literally right next to me so I can properly fangirl. 

"MAYBE IT'S IN THE GUTTER WHERE I LEFT MY LOVER WHAT AN EXPENSIVE FAKE! MY V IS FOR VENDETTA I THOUGHT THAT I'D FEEL BETTER BUT NOW I HAVE A BELLYACHE!" Billie joins in with us for the chorus. 

3 more songs play before we get to Finneas' house. Billie pulls into the driveway and turns off the car. Kelsey gets out first and as I'm about to open the door, Billie places her hand on my thigh to stop me. I turn to look at her with raised eyebrows. 

"I'm sorry" she says. She looks really sorry too. She looks sad even. I keep looking at her, waiting for her to continue. "You didn't deserve what I did and I'm sorry. I wanted to text you and call you. God, I wanted to talk to you every chance I got". 

"Then why didn't you?" I ask. 

She sighs. 

"It's a long story. A story I don't think I'm ready to tell you yet. It's nothing you did. At all. Whatsoever. It's something I went through, and it still affects me to this day and It's stopping me from doing things I want to do. Like talking to you. But I will tell you someday I promise. I don't want you to think you did something, because you didn't. It was all me. It's something I'm trying to work through. But I'm so sorry I hurt you and I really hope we can try and work through this. I don't want to lose you, as a friend or whatever we are". 

We sit there for a few seconds. 

I lean over the center consol and kiss her on the cheek and pull away going back to the passenger seat. 

"Thank you for apologizing. It means a lot. It did hurt when I texted and didn't receive even a 1-word response back. I would've preferred that over nothing at all. But I appreciate you apologizing and I don't wanna lose you as a friend or whatever we are either". I smile at her. 

"So, we're, okay?" She asks. I nod "We're okay" 

She smiles at me, and I swear I see her blush a little bit too. Billie Eilish blushing over me? What??? 

"Cmon lets go inside so you can finally work in a studio!" She gets out of the car, and I follow her. 

"Its about time you 2 got out! It feels like I've been waiting for yearsss!" Kelsey complains dramatically.