The 100 sacrifices

~chapter 19

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                              Yu don nau,
                               Skaiwona
                                             19
                                              

  The air got thick into Cora's lungs, the sharp pain rushed through her body again and again, killing her on the inside. She wanted to stop and wake up and realize that everything that happened was a bad dream...a bad terror, but unfortunately it's just a dream for it to be a bad dream. She've been running through the tunnels for what felt like an eternity...she had no idea for how long she've been locked up here, she just guessed it passed a few days, maybe a few weeks...The worst a few months, but..There was a thought that was never leaving her mind, what if passed years and she didn't even realized...

All she did here was only to escap. and find
her tiwn brother, but what if Annya's right?
WHAT IF HE DIDN'T MAKE IT?

Cora couldn't shake the feelings of emptiness in her chest, that was slowly mixing with fear and pain, forming the perfect balance between emptiness, fear and pain, slowly tearing through her soul to her skin, making sure to cut deep and leave a scar whenever this mix of feelings will go away...If it will ever go away.

Her eyes stung with tears in it as her vision got slightly blurry, her girp on the sword loosened and her hands trembled. Eventually it hadn't pass long and Cora stopped as she let out a sniffle, tears slowly falling from
her eyes and rolling down her now rosey cheek.

                         "What am I fighting for?"

The words slipped out of Cora's mouth through ragged breaths "What's the point of anything?" she asked herself as her knees were slowly failing her just like her mind...What if everything she's fighting for is just a memory? A nice dream? Gosh, it's been so long since she had a good sleep...everytime she closed her eyes all she could see was Bellamy and Finn getting lost in the fight outside the dropship, the doors closing...The explosion echoing through her ears, the explosion. The hole in the dropship...Bellamy breathless on the flooor. Murphy, telling her she was right, LIKE ALWAYS...Before he left..

     How long has it been since that happened?

She wished she knew, she wished she was with him right now,  Gosh even if she saw Finn she would feel a little bit of relief at this point...even Kane or Jaha...Anyone at all...Just a FAMILIAR face.

The world was a CRUEL place...especially for Cora...it's been so long since she'd been truly happy...she has scars already, on her body and on her soul.

Truth to be told, since that night...since the moment she heard Murphy was banished...it all fell down.
Something inside her was broken...And it could never be fixed again, NEVER.

Going home, that's all Cora wanted, but you know when you don't have a home then where do you go? Her whole life John was her home, after her parents died, it's always has been her and John, they've never been separated, except the skybox, but they were 7 cells away...But now...Only God knows what the distance between them was.

She closed her eyes, seeing John's face, Octavia's face, Bellamy's face, Raven's face, Monty's face, Jasper's face and Clarke's face. She may have had her differences with Clarke, but right now if she would've seen her she wouldn've been more than happy. Sadly, this is only a nice fantasy in her mind..Mixed with the memory of their faces.