Love is Sacrifice (♥KHUNFANY♥)

Twenty-one

♥Tiffany's POV

"Toria wants to talk to you"

I face Khun when he came outside Toria's room. Im really nervous right now but I dont know why. My instinct saying me that there might be something bad happen. I didnt get a good sleep last night cause after Toria called her Mom she suddenly vomitted again. She's really getting more worst. It's 5 in the morning and still dark outside. She wake us up cause she said she wants to drink milk. I came in and found her laying in the bed.

"Hey, you wanna talk to me?"

"Y-yeah. But not here. Please bring me to the veranda. I wanna see the sunrise"

My forehead knuckles. But though it's wierd I called Khun to help to carry her and bring ro the veranda since she had a hard time in standing. Khun let her sit on the long chair facing the city.

I sat beside her and Khun leave us alone. She was silent for awhile.

"Why did you lied to me Fany-ah?"

I was surprise for her question. Wait. How did she know?

"T-Toria-"

I didnt finished when she glared at me.

"I know everything Fany-ah. You cant hide to me. But Fany is it that hard to tell me the truth?! I can accept it. You dont need to hurt yourself just for me!"

I hung my head low. This is the first time Toria get mad at me like that. I silently cried. But I felt her hand lifted my head and wipe away my tears.

"But you know Fany-ah. You just prove how important I am in your life. And Im proud of you. But you know what my happiness is, to see you and Mom happy"

She kissed my crown and look at the city again. The sun slowly rise giving light to everyone. She lean her head in my shoulder and hold my hand tightly.

"Tiffany I will tell you something"

"What is it Toria?"

"But promise first that you will stay quit after Im finish ok?"

"Sure"

I heard her sigh and she's silent for awhile.

"Actually I didnt know where to start..You know what Tiffany. Im thankful that you've came to my life. Your always there for me
Always in my side. Making me happy. You've been my bestfriend and my sister. Giving me a lot of reasons to fight and be strong. Stopping me if I want to give up. I didnt even imagine before that I could live this long. But I guess I should let go now. And please dont stop me cause I'm really tired"

Hearing those words from Toria makes my world stop. Tears starting to flow on my eyes didnt even noticing it. Is she saying goodbye now?? Oh no. No please. Not now. Not now. I want to say something but I promised her to keep silent. I look at her but she's closing her eyes and I saw a tear fall down from her eyes. She squiz my hand.

"I want to say thank you. Thank you so much. You brought color into my boring life. I know you already have sacrifice alot just for me. And its enough. It's enough Tiff. Dont hurt your self again. Dont choose me again.Thank you Tiffany. For staying. Words cant explain how much you mean to me. Be happy. I now can leave you cause I know Nick will be there for you. Please take care of my Mom ok? I love you Tiffany."

I heard her voice cracked. I cant stop my self from crying silently. I guess this is a goodbye. I cant accept this. Why its so hard to let her go? I lifted my head and look at the clear sky and biting my lower lip so that sobs cant escape from my mouth. This is so damn hard. We've been silently for awhile. I tried to calm myself though I know I cant. I want to talk to her cause I think this wont happen again. This is my last chance to say everything.

"T-Toria. Can I have a request too?"

"S-sure. What is it?"

I swallowed and silent for a while then when I think I can speak normally I took a deep breath.

"I love you Toria. You we're always be my bestfriend and my sister. I love you always rember that"

"Was that a request?"

"No"

"Then what is your request?"

"Please stay"

A silent for awhike then I heard her sigh and face me. She tried to smile though her tears are keep on flowing from her eyes. She didnt say anything then lean back on my shoulder again.

"5 mins. Is it ok?"

"No! Make it 10. No 15. Make it 20. Or 1 hour. Or maybe 1 day. 1 month. 1 year. . Make it 10 years..P-Please..S-stay"

I couldnt hide this anymore I burst on crying. I cried infront of her. I dont care if she will be mad. But I really want her to stay. She look at me again and smile.

"5 mins. Dont be stubborn"

She fake a laugh and lean again. She hold my hand tightly and squiz it. We stay in that position for a minute and no ones talking. I cry silently though she still know it. Please God let her stay.

"Tiffany. You'll sing on a contest right?"

"Y-yeah"

"Can I have another request?"

"Sure. W-what is it? I'll do anything"

She sigh again. I just waited for her to say something.

"I want you to sing a song for me in the contest"

"W-what song?"

"Any"

"Ok"

Silent again. Only the sound of the birds can hear.

"One more thing Fany"

"What is it"

"I will be there. Cheering for you. Though you cant see me. I will be there. Just look at the light. I will be your spotlight. I promise"

I didnt answered her cause Im.crying hard. Still digesting all the things she said. Still accepting that she will be gone any minute from now.

"Fany-ah. Can I sleep now? Your 5 mins already end. Let me go ok? Cause Im really tired"

"O..ok..if thats what you want..sleep well T-Toria"

After a few minutes I feel her hand became lose. But I didnt let it go. We remained at that position still watching the city. Silently crying on her side. Her hand became very cold. She's gone now. My bestfriend is gone. She left me. I look back and saw Khun standing not too far from us beside Hawie, Aries and Gin whose crying too. I saq Khun's eyes are red too sign and he cried.

After a while Khun came toward us and lifted Toria abd brought here to her room.I just stayed there crying. I will miss her. Her smile, her corny jokes, her hugs. Suddenly our memories together started to play on my mind. When I felt someone hugged me.

"Just cry Boo. I will be here."

Khun said and rubbed my back. There I cried until I felt tired and fall asleep in Khun's shoulder.