Bill kaulitz x self insert

"I won't let you be the one to get away"

Nicole's pov:

Again,another night of bill taking all his frustrations out on me. Cursing at me,yelling and leaving. Did I know where he would go? No. Hell he could be cheating on me. I held out hope that he would change but he didn't. Tonight was no different. Him yelling at me like it was my fault the equipment wasn't working. When he was done before he could leave I stopped him and just headed for the door.
"Now you don't have to be the one to storm out and go god knows now." I huffed before slamming the door and letting my tears come down. I missed my bill. The bill that was sweet and loving. Who would Never EVER raise his voice at someone. But now instead of a girlfriend to him,someone to cherish and love, I was just a nobody. An object he can hurt and hurtle insults at. A "stupid fucking bitch" was all that I was to him.

Bill's pov:

When I heard the door shut my world stopped. What was I even doing? I heard her car speed off and couldn't even process what I had done. I went to bed with only the feelings of emptiness and regret. I felt like a piece of me and been torn away from me and it was all my fault. I knew I had to make things right. The next morning I called everyone that knew Nicole and asked if they had heard from her. Luckily an old friend she had told me that she was in a hotel nearly 2 hours away. She had planned to go to Las Vegas to live with her dad for a few days. Was she really that scared and hurt of me? I hung up and tried calling Nicole like about 500 times until she picked up.
"Look..I know you don't want to speak to me-" I was cut off.
"Yeah. I don't. You have been tearing me apart for MONTHS. Bill. You can't just do this and expect me to forgive you easily. My dad goes back to Chicago in a week. So maybe then we can work something out. But right now I don't want to talk to you." Her voice was breaking but was firm. I agreed and hung up. How could I be so stupid? I was apart from Nicole for a few weeks for tours so I didn't know why it was so hard to not talk to her for only a week. It finally connected why it was hard. She stopped thinking I loved her. I couldn't call her to tell her I loved her,how much I missed her. For months she only heard the insults I called her. The most common being "stupid fucking bitch" I had done nothing but vent to the guys and cry. I knew Nicole deserved space and the bare minimum I could do was give her that space. The week was a painful long blur but finally I heard my phone ring. I sprung up and saw Nicole was calling me. I picked up like my life depended on it.
"I'm driving back to a hotel about 30 minutes away..we can talk then.." she was about to hang up before I stopped her.
"I'll be there..I love you" after I said that I could tell she started crying. Then it hit me. I haven't told her I loved her for months..my heart shattered and I caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror. I was a wreck. I knew I had to be the man she needed. The man she deserved. I waited for her to tell me she had arrived and I sped over as fast as I could. She messaged me the information and I went to the room. Anxiety ate at me as I walked down the hallway. When I arrived at the door I knocked on it lightly and saw her look through the peep hole. The door opened and I was met with a very very tired Nicole and she was very shy when she saw me. More like timid..scared almost.
"I missed you.." I uttered out. She let me in and I sat on the bed. It was silent for a few moments until she sat next to me.
"Why.." was the only thing she mustered.
"I was childish. I took my problems and put them on the one I loved the most. Instead of asking for help I just reacted in anger and hoped the problems would just go away. They didn't. In fact I created bigger problems and chased the only source of help that could help me..I'm sorry.." in that moment I could tell how much this took a tole on her. She looked so shaky and lifeless at the same time. She would make eye contact then break it and look at something else. I slowly raised my hand as to not scare her and just cupped her face. It was a simple gesture but I didn't want to overwhelm her.
"I'll always be here Bill..I would do anything for you. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I would get anxious when you came home,I started doubting my abilities as a girlfriend,I didn't want to be around you as much anymore.." her eyes filled with tears as did mine. I nodded and wiped her tears.
"I know how hard it must've been..I'm better now..I promise. I love you..can I show you that?" She nodded softly. I smiled and kissed her forehead and held her in my arms.

Nicole's pov:

In that moment I felt any tension in the room fade away. We laid like that for a while until we packed my stuff and checked out. When we got home I felt light for the first time in a while. Like our house was actually a home. After unpacking I was taking a shower when I heard the door open and close. I didn't think too much of it until I felt soft fingertips placed on my hips.
"It's just me..can I help?" I nodded and felt Bill's fingers start to massage my scalp. I eased into his touch and felt warm water pour down my back. After he helped me dry off and we laid in bed. I was scrolling through instagram while bill was in his own world. I caught him glancing at me so I was about to ask what was wrong but he pulled me into his chest and just held me. I took in the sweet floral and vanilla scents that filled my nose. I did really miss him..
"I'm sorry..I'm sorry." He muttered into my hair. I put my phone down and wrapped my arms around him.
"I missed you.." I sniffled into his shirt. It had been hard not having bill around and I mean my bill.
"Oh liebe I missed you too..I missed you so much..I love you and I won't stop telling you that until you believe it." He kissed my head and laid me on his chest before we both fell asleep.