Bill kaulitz x self insert

Can i forgive you?

Nicole's pov:

I was at home when I got a text from my friend asking if I wanted to go to a club that was supposed to be the biggest and best one in LA so I agreed since my boyfriend bill was also there so why not? I got on my cutest dress and drove to the club. After a few shots I saw bill on the dance floor so I excitedly ran over to him however,I saw him dancing with some chick..his hands were all over her and dancing with her like he would dance with me..my heart broke but instead of making a whole scene I just turned and walked away ignoring my tears and his pleads for me to stay and to hear him out. I didn't want to though. I couldn't bear to see him at that moment. And what was he going to do? Sit there and lie to my face? I wasn't having it. I got in my car and cried on the way home. See,I could see this from his brother but NEVER did I think bill was the type..it's always the innocent looking ones.. I got changed and went to sleep crying. I hoped this was all a fucked up dream. When I woke up the next morning I had dozens of messages from Tom,bill and my best friend and fellow model colleague Lily. She had supported me through my music career and new modeling career. I was shorter than the rest of the angels but she never teased me or made me feel as if I didn't belong and I loved her. I read Tom's and lily's messages and ignored bills, Too hurt to read it.

Tom: Nikki I know you're upset and I will never forgive him but he does truly love you if you need to talk me and the guys are open

Lily ♡ଓ: Girl I am so sorry for what bill did. If you want we could do something to cheer you up next week :)

And so many more messages. I was reading through them and messages from the other angels when I heard a knock on my door. Who the hell is at my door at 9 in the morning? I opened my door and saw bill. His hair was all messy and his eyes were bloodshot.
"You have 2 minutes before I slam this door in your face." I hissed. He took a deep breath before he started apologizing.
"Liebe, I was drunk and didn't know what i was doing..I know that's no excuse but if I hadn't been drinking I wouldn't have been with that girl. The only girl I have eyes for is you. I promise..I will do anything to get you back..please.." i hated how much I loved him.. I sighed and felt his hand cup my face.
"I can't forgive you..not right now. Being drunk is no excuse..you have to prove to me that you're sorry." He nodded and kissed my forehead.
"Whatever it takes.." he mumbled before tucking my hair behind my ears and getting in his car. I sniffled and tried to get my mind off bill. His smile,his eyes,his voice,his laugh,his everything..it was so hard. I decided to start my workout and start my day. It was now 10 in the morning and I was getting ready to get my morning Starbucks when I heard another knock on my door. I decided to see if it was a package so I peaked out my curtains and saw bill place something down before jogging to his car and driving away. I was curious and opened my door to see my Starbucks sitting on my front step. my heart felt warm and I took the drink before shutting the door. I felt something on the back and saw a small bouquet of Lilly of the valleys and baby's breath taped to the cup they were some of my favorite flowers and didn't even know bill knew.. I smiled a bit and texted Tom to tell him I said thank you since I wasn't ready to talk to bill yet.

A few months later: Nicole's pov:

I still wasn't over bill but I had to suck it up since the fashion show was tonight and couldn't have any distractions. I was getting ready when I saw a picture of me and him from my first show last year. Thinking about it made me realize that I wasn't mad at bill..I was hurt. I couldn't even write a song about it because of how hurt I was. Then my mind came to me..I still loved him. I sighed and got ready to leave. When I got to the show I got my makeup and outfit on and got ready for line up. When it was my turn to walk I saw bill in the corner of my eye. My heart fluttered but he was probably there to make excuses. Soon the show was over and I was getting ready to leave when I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"You looked really beautiful.." I looked back and saw bill.
"Thank you.." I tried to keep a calm tone but inside I was both angry and happy to see him.
"Now I know you probably never want to see me again but I can't just live knowing I never tried to fix my mistakes. I love you so much..you're my whole world and without you life doesn't seem as interesting. I miss you." I want to believe him but that's what all cheaters say..however maybe he'll be different. At this point what do I have to lose?
"Just one more chance..I was never angry bill I was just so hurt that you let alcohol make decisions for you. But if you promise to never let it happen again we can try to move past it.." he smiled and hugged me tightly and tried to give me a kiss but I swerved away, giggling at his pout.
"Not so fast. I don't forgive you 100% yet. You have to work for a kiss." I giggled before kissing his cheek and going home. Maybe we'll be alright..