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FIFTY

INNER THOUGHTS

Dahyun

"What is it?"

I'm shivering with butterflies filling my stomach. As our hands intertwined together, the same action I wished to stay longer but he gave me mercy to feel this simple touch again.

I have to admit, Jungkook is the first male my mom ever introduced to me. When she asked me to come with her to visit her friend's house, I know that she up to something. I see her worry face about me not dating anyone at this age. My job is not allow me to date, the job I've been occupied is taking most of my time.

I thought my mom is kidding about Jungkook, I sceptically that this gonna end well. And it's right, when I meet him, his appearance are cold and silent, like a guy never looked at woman first. But I'm not gonna deny how much good looking he is, out of all man that I've ever met, Jungkook just raised every woman standards.

But then everything changed when he tell me his name. That night was shivering cold out his left yard of his house, but I had to approach him. He was shy at first, and he knows his mother's intention why I also came that night.

Ever since then, we rarely meet, he's busy with his work but still got times to text me once a day just to ask how was my day. That's when we decided to be friends, as for starters.

And now we sitting here watching the erotic thriller movie that I don't care no more because he asked me to come with him to Turin. A place I heard for first time. He said it's in Milan, a part of Italy I never visit before.

"I've date several times." He said when I was waiting for him to tell me what's on his mind. I know he would but I never ask because he might be thinking I'm prying.

"You tell me this now?"

"Because you never ask, and I think you don't care. But I had to tell you so there will be no misunderstanding between us in the future." His sharp eyes stare at me but still can find his gentleness so easily.

"If there's problem between us in the future, I'm not going to misunderstand before I hear it from you." It's calming when I see him relief and lower down his shoulders out of pressure. He feel bad talking about past with me but I honestly curious too.

"I date two times, both didn't work." He sighs and look at our hands, he play with my pinky finger where I had my ring on, it was casual but for me is a big impact to my poor heart. He is shaking it again and again.

"Your first girlfriend must be the luckiest." I say and his eyes meet mine, there's a sparkle when he said yeah and a little smile he cannot be hidden.

"What's her name?"

"Uhm." He hesitantly quiet, he wants to tell me but he can't, only to prevent I met the girl with that name. "Her name is Kim Y/n, and the girl after her is Kwon Nara. It was a year after Y/n and I separated." He continues unexpectedly. And I focus on one word.

"Separated?" I assure.

"She left me by forced," he just said that and nothing else. Maybe he doesn't want to share more.

"And, what happened to Nara?" He smiles, drawing circle on the back of my hand.

"She was a crew at the drama I produce, she wants to pursue her dream to the wide world, and I let her go." He stare at me and I smile to him. Not being pity of how miserable his love life was, but to give him courage that he tried his best and none of the separation he is even through is his fault. Doesn't matter what have he is been done with the two girls from his past, it will sure part of his privacy he has right to conceal.