My story.

July, 16th,2015

Hi, 

Today was exhausting. I've been dealing with three different hater accounts and its driving me crazy. I've been dealing with so much anxiety and they steal my instagram posts and call me a whale or a ugly whore. I'm just done with it, I try so hard to ignore it but its so hard when they keep tagging you and they say i'm a emo bitch who deserves to die or something. 

I wish I could just die, just disappear forever. It seems like a melodramatic teenage problem but its the truth. My parents arent much of a help, The last time I told them about a hater account my dadh threw my phone at a wall and they told me that I probably made up that account for attention. So yeah thats out of the question. I just want to make them happy but at the same time I resent them so much that its become a problem. Like I dont talk to them or even look at them. I just stay in my room and ignore the world.  

I have been feeling kinda sick today, not like a cold or anything but I'm sort of dizzy and nauseous and I have a headache. I haven't felt like this since school ended when my Ana was at its worst. I cant even breathe at the moment. I'm just listening to zella day and lying down so this can hopefully pass. I want to recover but some of you know that this is really hard to do. And it sucks because you want to go back to your old ways but you cant.

Guess what! my mom was going through my closet to see if I had old clothes to donate and she found an old pair of jeans from when I was 11 and I tried them on and they fit perfectly! I'm 14 now and I was about 90lbs in the sixth grade and right now I weigh about 100lbs which means I lost 26-28lbs in 3 months which is good considering when I was 13 I weighed a lot.

Guess what I'm 2 months clean! lets keep that going. 

A/N Please dont follow in my stupid ways, ED's are so fucking horrible in ways you cannot imagine.