My sketch I did today^^^^
I've been so depressed lately, I've been trying to be happier but my parents keep yelling at me and it's causing my anxiety to get worse. I had this suicidal moment on Friday but (A) talked to me and helped me through it.
He likes annoying me a lot, but he cares about me and doesn't like seeing me so hurt. That or he doesn't want me to die.
My dad told me that everything is my fault which made me really upset because I can't handle it when people tell me stuff like this. It gives me anxiety, and I shake so badly. Like for the past two days I've been shaking and if someone even says something I jump and I start shaking.
Like today my phone rang and I screamed and declined it because I wasn't in the mood to answer. It sounds horrible I know but... I seriously don't have the energy or emotional stability to talk to anyone.
I'm not looking forward to going to school because I hate waking up at 5:00 and I hate doing work so much, it's soo stressful and it's hard being in 3 honors classes and having a job.
Anyways (A) and I were texting for these past couple of days and he know how to cheer me up. Even if it means annoying me to the point where I want to strangle myself. Today we were just trying to see who had the worst insult. I think I won because I'm savage af and I'm so mean and cruel. I have no chill at all. But yeah I ended up laughing my ass off at some of his insults because some where just downright hilarious.
I lost 1lb which is a great thing for me since I'm 104 right now. Every time I weigh myself it kills me because I want to see 98 again but now I see 104 and it reminds me of when people used to make fun of me for my weight. It just brings back memories of failure and Disappointment and I seriously don't want to relive those memories.
Also I'm starting cheer soon and I'm so excited, I also just started volleyball also so now I'm busy and im gonna lose some weight.
Anyways I'm really tired, it's 11:54pm right now and I have to wake up at 8:00 so goodnight darlings
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RandomSo this is my story guys, to tell you the truth I already created one but I deleted it because I didnt want to get hate. But I have some warnings Basically it's about my life and all the uninteresting things that go on in my pathetic life TRIGGER...
