Today I was forced to go to the community pool, I refused and tried hiding my bathing suits so I wouldn't come but my mom saw through my bullshit. I hate going to the pool or the beach.
Now don't get me wrong I love the water and I love swimming. It's just the fact that I have to be in a bathing suit. Especially a bikini, I feel so uncomfortable and I feel like everyone is staring at me. I have this paranoia that everyone is talking about me behind my back because i'm not skinny enough. I hate everything about my myself. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my thighs and how they touch. It pains me to see all these skinny perfect girls who are so happy with themselves.
Anyways I just ate dinner and I feel so sick, The only reason I had to eat was because my body was about to collapse if I didn't. I only ate a little but still. I hate eating or people watching me eat. I just hate people in general. I look like I gained weight. It is killing me I cant keep doing this, My hair is falling out, My stomach is killing me even when I eat. I feel so weak that I cant even move. And I get so many migraines its unimaginable.
I wish that someone cared about me, I always text my friends, My parents practically ignore me. My siblings hate me. Its getting too hard.
Hopefully you had a good day, xoxo N.Z
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