Diary of a person (boy) aceflux

Is something wrong with me?

I feel inadequate, I feel too ugly for this relationship (I know you're reading this, I love you) Everything I do is wrong, I'll leave the room and ask something, bad, I won't eat enough, I'll eat too bad, I'll lift a little too voice, bad, my mom keeps shouting at me and I don't know why. I love him, but does he still love me? I feel terribly uncomfortable when someone looks me in the eye while talking, I get stressed and I can't learn anything. My mother has a problem with the way I dress for my room. She repeated it so many times that it made me sick and I started to believe it and tried to control myself. Is this really who I am?