Young (girlxgirl)

This doesn't mean anything

A/N: this has nothing to do with the story, but this is one of my unfinished art pieces😊 it's a polygon project where I had to recreate the image using different shapes. (Made in Adobe Photoshop)

Jess' POV:

I pulled up outside of Marielys' house. Why couldn't Lauren just keep her.

"Where is she?", I asked Lauren

"She's in the living room come in and get her", she replied

I sighed getting out of the car and walking towards the house.
"Nat lets go", I groaned once I reached the living room

"H-hey my princess", she slurred

Ugh kill me now

I grabbed her arm and started dragging her to my car

"My princess I l-love youuuu", she sang and I felt my heart strings tug

"Can you shut up please thanks", I snap

"Why? I do love you... Like a lot a lot"

"You don't fucking leave someone you love"

"I didn't want t-to leave you, but my feelings were getting out of control"

"That's not an excuse", I yell

"You fucking knew how I was with feelings Jessica, I wasn't ready to love you yet"

"So why the fuck would you lead me on", I cry "you know how I felt about you"

"My gosh Jess I don't know why I ever do half of the shit I do, but you can't deny the fact that I loved you... that I love you"

"No no" I shook my head "that's not love you're fucking selfish and I hate you so much"

"It doesn't work like that" she pounded on my dash "you still love me and you wish your new girl toy was me. I bet she can't tou-"

I reached over and smacked her

"Shut up Nathalie"

"You want me to be quiet because you know it's true" she looked away "I'm going to wait for you because I know
I don't deserve you, but mark my words mi amor you will be mine again and when I get you back I'll know how to love you the way you deserve"

I swallowed hard and kept driving her home .

I can't even deny her words because I still fucking love her. I'm undeniably and irrevocably in love with her, she was my everything and I do hope she can be that for me again. I just feel like something good could be there for Mel and me and I don't want to jeopardize it. However, I can't shake the feeling that Nat and I are meant to be.

"We're here", I say looking over at Nat

"Kay thanks", she mumbled groggily getting out of the car

"Hey wait!", I yell before she can close the door.

She looks at me. Oh my gosh I guess I haven't taken anytime to actually look at her features and she looks so tired... no she looks physically exhausted

"Have you been sleeping?", I ask whispering

"Yup I'm doing fine, goodbye Jess", she closed the door and walked inside of her house.

I don't know why, but I've been over thinking things ever since I saw her again and shits all over the place for me and it's not helping that Mel hasn't contacted me in a while.
What if Nat was right and I'm just using Mel to get over her, but that's the thing I don't it's possible for me to ever get over her. Her leaving left me in a bad place for time and I'd love if I could just hate her, but I can't no matter how much I try.

I missed her so much and now she's here and I honestly have no idea what to do.

My drive home consisted of me playing Where are ü now... I fucking love that song

When I got in the house I immediately went to my bed and laid down.

Me abuela always used to ask me "¿Sufre más aquél que espera siempre que aquél que nunca esperó a nadie" (does the person who always waited suffer more than he who never waited for anyone?)
And I'd always look at her like wtf is she talking about did abuelo leave her or something, but after the whole situation with Nat I honestly see what she was talking about.

I heard me phone ring "hey my love", Mel's voice flowed through my speaker and I actually found myself disappointed that it wasn't someone else on the line

"Hey beautiful", I reply

"Sorry I didn't contact you sooner"

"It's fine you're not obligated to"

"Uhh yeah Renzo said he misses you"

"Aww I miss him to, send me a pic when we hang up"

"Okay"

"How is your trip so far?"

"It's nice my nonna missed me, she said I look different every time she sees me", she laughs

"Tell me about it every time I go to Puerto Rico mi abuela is like 'Dios mío mira cómo has crecido' I'm pretty sure I stopped growing"

"Yeah as soon as I walked into her house she was like ' guardate il mio bambino è così cresciuta' and I was just like what I looked exactly the same as the last time I saw you nonna

   There was about a 5 minute silence between us and it wasn't the comfortable one either.

"So...", Mel started and I mentally laughed. Here we go.

  "Just say it, I told you how I felt about people beating around the bush"

"I'm gonna be here all summer and since we just started our relationship I think that 2 and a half months is quite sometime to be apart.... plus I saw the way you were looking at that girl at the beach"

"Okay and um yeah that that was my ex I was telling you about..."

"I think we can still be really good friends"

"Yeah same", I smiled "I still want that selfie of you and Renz"

"Okay I gotcha, I'll talk to you later beautiful"

"Alright later mi amor", I hang up

   I feel somewhat glad about this because with Nat back I honestly don't know, and we are kind of better off as friends anyway. We just started our relationship so there's no hard feelings about this at all.

   We can all still hang out and what not.

A/N: I visited Pratt (art and design college) the other weekend and I got great reviews on my portfolio so far, so I'm lit😜