Young (girlxgirl)

Habits of my heart

Jess' POV:

It's honestly crazy how fast your life can change. Literally one week there I was thinking I was over Nat and now here I am in the next week reminiscing about the times we had cause she just so happened to return in my life.
It's really not fair to myself that I feel this way about her. I mean if it was that easy for her to walk away from our relationship when she started falling In love with me, there's no telling what would happen if I were to take her back.
Part of me honestly just wants us to pick up where we left, but another part of me can't stand the sight of her. 

"I need to go out", I sigh

"Woah what happened to you?", Josiah asks while jumping on my bed

"Aww you're back, I missed you"

"Yeah yeah I'm back now what happened"

"Oh um", I laugh nervously "I broke up with Mel and Nats back" I mumbled the last part

"Yooo when did she get back?!", she yelled

"A couple days ago"

"Well shit"

"Exactly"

"Well does she still love you?", she asked curiously

"Yes that's what has me fucked up"

"Explain"

"Kay so she was drunk AF at this party and one of her teammates asked me to come pick her up and she gets in the car talking how much she loves me and that I only went with Mel to forget about her and that she could never make me feel the way she did blah blah"

"And?"

"And the whole time she was preaching I'm just sitting there like shit she's right"

"I don't know what to say, but just go about this with your head on straight and make your decisions for you", she says poking my forehead

I only smile and nod in agreement.

"I wonder who this is", I say pick my phone up

I saw a text from Nat

   

Nat😑😏:I meant what I said last night...

Me: Kay😴😴

Nat😑😏: really? That's all you have to say

Me: well there's not really shit else to say

Nat:😑😏: maybe that you feel the same?..

Me: how about... Fuck no *august alsina voice*

Nat😑😏: babe please I know you feel the same

Me: 😂😂 you don't have the right to call me pet names😭🙅

Nat😑😏: whatever. Can you come over? I'm home alone for the weekend

Me: I'll think about it

Nat😑😏: I'll see you there😘😘

I didn't bother responding as I got up packing a weekend bag for myself. What's the harm in this.

I picked up my phone and called Nat. "Hello?" 
"Come open the door", I say before hanging up

"Hiii", she greeted once she finally opened the door

"Hello"

"...so no hug?"

I move closer to her and wrap my arms around her torso. God I've missed this so much.

"You smell nice", she said as she reached down and grabbed my ass. Strangely enough I didn't stop her.

"Thank you", I say making my way into her home.

"So what's on our agenda for this weekend?"

" I don't know, you invited me"

"So Netflix and chill sound good?", she smirked knowing the true intentions behind her words.

"So you think I'm going to just give it up, especially after what you did? No thanks", I say slapping her chest harshly

"Well damn a simple no would've been good"

I just smile on my way to her room.

"I've been having this pain in my back", she whined.

"And?"

She quickly made her way over to me and grabbed my waist picking me up then placing me down on her desk and stepping in between my legs

"And I want you to massage me"

"Well what if I don't want to?", I ask.

"I don't really think you have a choice baby", she says picking up my hands and pinning them above my head.

I whine at her sudden move. "Why do you make me feel like this"

"Feel like what", she asks with her lips ghosting over my neck.

"Fucking hell you get me all sexually frustrated"

"I can take care of that you know"

"Nope, negative, not a chance do you rea-" my rant was cut short with her lips being pressed against my neck sucking harshly

I groan. I shouldn't be letting this happen, but my resistance is wearing extremely thin.

I push my hips out hoping she takes the hint and applies some pressure to where I need it the most.

She smirks looking down. "Seems like you want me to take care of it", she says licking over the spot she just sucked.

"Fuck", I involuntarily moan

"Tell me what you want Jessica" 

"Fucking touch me", I grunt pushing out my hips once more.

She grabbed my hips pulling me closer to her "mm I could take you right here on my desk, then again on my bed, maybe in the shower, on the fl-"

I shut her up with my lips on hers.

She slides one hand between my legs and applies the slightest amount of pressure to my clothed clit.

I gasp and brake the kiss "you're driving me crazy"

"I love you Jessica", she says.

I push her away as I feel tears building up in my eyes.

"No y-you don't", I sobbed trying to push her away again, but to no avail.

"Shh shh baby I do, I love you so much"

I gripped her shirt in my fists and just cry as she draws soothing patterns in my back.

I'm not sure how long we stayed like that or when I fell asleep, but when I came to I was snuggled into Nat's side and she was stroking my hair.

"Are you okay beautiful?", she questions sincerely.

"Why'd you leave? You broke me."

"Honestly I don't know, there's no excuse"

I shake my head trying to get up, but she tightened her grip on me.

"Let go"

"No, you're mine"  I would usually get all pissed off at someone claiming me, but the way she said it was different. She had so much sincerity in her voice and it was like she was trying to convince herself more than she was trying to convince me.

  "Did you get with any other girls while... you know?", I asked not sure if I wanted to know the answer.

"Baby girl I haven't even looked at another girl. I love you so much and I'm such an idiot."

"I love you too", I mumble not even realizing it.

A/N: would you guys mind if this was a g!p story? It would make the smut scenes easier to write for me being that I'm not really experienced in girl on girl, and I don't want people to come crazy at me for fucking the scenes up. However, the decision is ultimately up to me, but I wanted to know if you guys would have a problem with it.