Light In The Dark (Louis X Styles Triplets)

Chapter 11

A/N Hi guyss, i decided i'll update on Tuesdays and Fridays, i'm really happy to see that someone is still reading this and i'm very excited for you to see everything i have prepared :)) I hope you guys are enjoying the story. Also i'm not sure how triggering the scenes are so i'll always put in the tw just in case. I'm sorry if there are mistakes in the chapter i was rereading it late last night and tried to get everything right and I don't have time to check it out now.

⚠️Tw panic attack⚠️

-Marcel's pov-

I walked into the small gym we had in the basement and saw Edward sitting with his back leaning against the wall, his arms crossed around his knees with his eyes closed. His knuckles were bruised and bloodied with matching stains on the wall.

"Eddie what did you do? Why would you do this?" I kneeled next to him taking his hands in mine.

"I couldn't protect you, Harry went through hell and i didn't even know, our dad Alex hurt you both so much, and they made you hate yourself and i didn't do anything. Now i can't even protect Louis. Why can't he just listen. I'm such a failure Marcel, my alpha hates me so much, he's screaming at me and i can't make it stop. I'm sorry Marcel, i'm sorry i couldn't protect you, i'm sorry, i'm sorry." He kept on mumbling quiet appologies while closing his eyes tightly.

Everytime he was going through something like this my heart would break. He tried to look so strong but he was just as hurt as us, he just always tried to push his feelings aside so he could be strong for Harry and me, and now it's all coming out. He almost looked like a child, scared and sad, and it was all happening because he pushed those feelings aside when he was younger and he didn't know how to deal with them, even tho he would never admit it. Now all of the feelings he bottled up throughout the year were coming out in the episodes like this.

He started pulling at his hair while still mumbling appologies.

"Let go Eddie, come on, calm down, it's okay, just let go darling please." I tried to take his hands off but his grip was too strong.

"Harry! Harry!" I yelled and soon i heard him running down the stairs.

"Get me his pills, hurry up!" I said while still trying to get him to let go of his hair.

He was still mumbling some words to himself, he was so out of it. Soon Harry came back with a glass of water and a bottle of pills handing them over to me.

"Come on Eddie, it's okay, it's okay, we're here. Calm down." I made him swallow the pills and soon he started losening his grip.

"It's okay, you're okay love. None of it was your fault. We're so thankfull for you, we would've been so lost without you, but you don't have to be so strong all the time. We're here for you too. Come on, rest now." I said as he was slowly falling asleep. Harry helped me carry him to our bed and we left him to sleep while we went to the living room with Louis.

-Harry's pov- (this is when Marcel went to check up on Edward)

Marcel walked out of the room and i stayed there with Louis.

"I'm sorry Lou, i know this is a lot, and i'll understand if you don't want to hang around anymore but please don't be mad at Eddie, he had been through so much and, even though he won't admit it he's hurt just like us, if not even worse. His alpha was always giving him a hard time whenever he felt like he failed us. Which is weird 'cause we never felt anything but love and gratefulness for him being there for us." I said slowly while caressing his hand lightly.

"I understand, but you have to understand me too, all of this is so sudden i mean, not that long ago i had no one, i was left alone to fight to survive and this job was the only thing providing me a roof above my head and food on the table. I can't just give it all up so suddenly but i promise i'll think about it and as soon as i find another solution i will quit the job." I smiled and shook off that feeling of disgust that was lingering in the pit of my stomach ever since i told the story. Remembering it always made me feel so disgusted with myself.

"Harry! Harry!" I heard Marcel yelling from downstairs and i quickly run over to him to see what was going on. It's obvious to say i wasn't ready to see that picture.

"Get me his pills, hurry up!" Marcel said and pulled me out of the shock, i ran back upstairs and quickly grabbed the bottle of pills and a glass of water, running back over to Marcel and Edward, as Louis followed me.

-Marcel's pov-

When we got to the living room we all sat down in silence.

"If you don't mind me asking, what was that about?" Louis asked quietly.

"When we were younger and our dad was still living with us Edward would get these kind of panic attacks. When things would get overwhelming he would just shut us out until he got to the breaking point- the panic attack. He hasn't had any in a while but i guess all these years of keeping in his pain got to him now." I explained and Louis nodded in understatement.

"I'm sorry. I said this to Harry already but i promise i will quit my job as soon as i find another solution." He said and i gave him a small smile.

"You know you're alway welcome to stay with us, we have plenty of room and more than enough money to take care of you. Our dad was an asshole but he had an amazing business going on and when he was sent to prison we became the ones in charge of it, well technically." I told him and i saw a small smile on his face.

"I'm really thankful but i can't, i would feel so bad if i just lived here for free, it's not right." He said and we understood.

"You know, if you want, we can still go to our date when Eddie wakes up, if you're up for it." Harry said with a slight blush and i smiled at him.

"You still want to?" He asked with hopeful eyes.

"Of course, we just gotta see how Eddie's feeling when he wakes up." I said and he nodded in agreement with a big smile on his face.

He hugged Harry and layed his head on Harry's chest, reaching over and holding my hand in his smaller one.

"What is this about?" I chuckled lightly.

"I just can't believe what you went through and yet you're still all so kind and loving, and i'm so grateful you trusted me enough to tell me this." He said with his eyes closed.

We laid like that in silence just enjoying eachothers presence for about half an hour before Edward walked downstairs.

"Hey Eddie, are you feeling any better?" I asked and he nodded while looking off to the side in, what i learned to recognize by now, was embarrassment. I hate that he's so ashamed of his feelings.

"Are you up for that date we had planned out for today?" I asked him and he again just nodded. I frowned at him, he was never this quiet, unless something was on his mind, really bothering him.

"Let's go get ready and then we can go." I said and got up, pulling Edward upstairs with me.

"What's wrong?" I asked and looked him in the eyes, trying to find the answer in them.

"It's nothing." He tried to leave but i held his hands slightly tighter, still being careful around his bruised knuckles.

"Tell me, you know i would never judge you." I whispered placing a small kiss on his shoulder. Even though we were identical twins, well triplets, he was still a little bit taller than me.

"I'm sorry you had to see me like that. I don't know what gotten over me." He said shaking his head.

"Emotions. It's okay to feel overwhelmed sometimes but please talk to Harry or me, don't hurt yourself." I caressed his knuckles gently.

"Louis saw me didn't he? He's going to think i'm pathetic, why would he want such a weak alpha anyway?" He placed his forehead on mine and closed his eyes.

"He doesn't think you're weak, actually, he thinks you're strong and brave, he told us that, again and again. Come on now let's go downstairs so we can go they're waiting for us." Before i could move he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me in for a kiss. A quiet moan escaped my mouth before i pulled away.

"You know what we said about this." I tried to be stern but i couldn't help but smile. We never really did anything with eachother, apart from kissing, and getting eachother worked up when we really wanted to get on the nerves of one another, but we agreed we would keep it down cause we didn't want Louis to be weirded out.

"I know but i missed doing that." He chuckled before we went downstairs.

I hope our date goes well from now, this day was already too sad and we could all use some cheering up.