Sakoria Legend

P. 9: Coping Mechanisms

It's been 2 weeks since I've transferred to Sakoria.

Every second of it has been hell.
And I can't stand it.

Sure, Yuu and Aria make it tolerable. But I can't deal with this anymore.

Ever since I wrote down how I saw the teachers eating a student alive in my journal, I haven't seen any weird hallucinations.

I've been keeping an eye out for anything else weird, but everything seems to be in order.

I've been waiting so long to wake up from this nightmare.

I almost thought it was real, but it just can't make sense.

It's..just inhumane to even think of eating another person.

I can't think of a single reason why every single one of the teachers are in on it..

But that definitely wasn't an illusion.
Everytime I get one, There's mysterious whispering in the background.

I can't tell myself that they weren't fake anymore.

But that also means I can't tell myself that any of this is real either.

“JoAnn! I'm going over to Aria's Dorm to watch a movie with her, wanna join us?!” Yuu asked.

“Sure, I'm not doing anything..” I agree, I just- I wanna get my mind off of this junk.

It's 8:00 PM on a Friday night. I'm in the kitchen preparing some popcorn while Yuu and Aria are setting up the VHR and TV.

They said I could make whichever kind I wanted, so I'm just making Mexican popcorn.
But I also make a separate bowl with butter popcorn in case they don't like it.

Tammie..taught me how to..

No.

Stop thinking about them.

Just focus on what's happening right now.

When I wake up from this nightmare.. we'll hangout like old time and laugh this dream off..

Once I finished mixing, I came back with bowl bowls.

“I made Mexican Popcorn, I also made Buttered popcorn just in case.”

“Ooo, hell yeah! I love Mexican popcorn!!” Yuu said, taking a handful and shoveling it into her mouth.

I giggled and placed both bowls onto the table, I also got a few soda cans and placed them down onto the counter as well.

Yuu had snuck some cans of beer in here with us as well. I couldn't have any, but Yuu and Aria were 18. So technically it was legal for them to drink since we were currently in England.

Although we would likely get in *big* trouble if we got caught.

I didn't even wanna think of the teachers though ever since that incident.

I haven't been able to look any of them in the eye, they just..it's so inhumane to..

I'm overthinking again.
I hate this.

I just tried to focus on the movie with Misha and Tam-

Aria.

Yuu and Aria.

Their names are Yuu and Aria.

Just focus on the something else.

Focus on ANYTHING else.

Why does my mind spiral to torment me like this…

It doesn't matter.
It's fine..

There's no way anything here is real, there's nothing to worry about.

We turned on the TV and started watching

We were watching this one Korean movie which was about this girl who was bullied by a group of girls at her school. It got so bad that once they all cornered her in an alleyway. She ended up killing them all with a boxcutter when she got back up, it was a really well made scene too.
She was able to get away with the murders, but she ended up being haunted and tormented by their spirits for the rest of her life. She ended up taking her life by jumping out of the window due to everything getting to her head.

There were a couple of jumpscares. Surprisingly, Yuu shrieked at the top of her lungs after each and every single one. I honestly found it a bit funny.

Although, for some reason I feel a..weird connection between me and that movie.
I just brush the feeling off, it's probably nothing.

“Thanks for inviting us, but I should probably go back to the dorm. Good night,” I said as I left, Yuu and Aria waved back. Just as I guessed; Yuu was gonna stay with Aria for the night, meaning I would be alone for the rest of the night.

I walk to my dorm. As soon as I entered, the lights out alarm went off, meaning it was 10 PM.

I didn't really eat too much, so I decided to just make something to eat quickly before I went to bed.
I dig around in the fridge, looking for anything that would interest me. For an elite school, the food options were honestly pretty shabby.

I found a bag of frozen meatballs. Figuring that was the best thing I would get my hands on, I put them on a plate and tossed it in the microwave.

After a minute, it was finally ready.

They felt a little cold, but I could really care less about the temperature. I was tired, hungry, and really out of it.

I took it to bed and ate quickly. It tasted weird..but again; I didn't really care.

I fell asleep not too long after eating. Hoping that I could peacefully get some shut-eye without a worry in the world.

…A couple hours later, I feel something rushing towards my throat.

I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom, I was getting more and more nauseous by the minute.

Slam the door open, lean over the toilet..

…I threw up.

EUgh- Hopefully it wasn't those meatballs..

I wiped my mouth and cleaned up, I wasn't rushing, but I just wanted to go to bed. I haven't been able to get any sleep ever since I've come here.

“Jooaann..” I hear the.. painfully familiar voice mumble from behind me.

“..you aren't real.” I responded.

“Listen to me this time! I promise you that-”

“You're not real. You're not dead. And I'm not in England right now. I just know this can't be real, All of the stuff I witnessed- It's impossible that so many people can act so cruel.”

I feel a hand on my shoulder, I see Misha in the mirror behind me.

“Joan-”

“Enough with the ‘I’m Dead’ bullshit, I know you can't be. This is all a bad dream. And once I wake up, we'll all still be in Canada having the time of our lives everyday. Living the night like it's our last.”

I didn't wanna hear it.

I was tired of being gaslighted.

I think by now I can think for myself.

“You're wrong, all of this- It's real.” Misha said.

“No! I'm tired of this! I'm tired of everyone telling me what to think! If you were really Misha, you'd know what I'm talking about! But you're not. You're just an illusion!” I yelled.

“Just hear me ou-”

“GET OUT OF MY HEAD ALREADY!!” I shriek out of anger. I wasn't having anymore of this. I loved Misha, but this couldn't be her. The real Misha.

With all my might, I slam my head into the mirror.

1186 words, (sorry for the shorter chapter)
I was supposed to post it yesterday night but I went to this really cool Halloween dance at my school and it was really fucking dope and I got terrorized by my friends 😇

now who wants canonical character designs