My hands fidget at my sides
I can feel my veins and the soft movements barely keeping me alive
the blood runs the opposite direction,
everything is downside up
and starting to fizzle
I sit straight in the darkness,
whisper softly to myself
it's okay it's okay it's okay
over and over
as I search for stars through the ceiling
I paint them on in my mind.
I need silence from everything real
fumble for my headphones in the dark
I plug them into the sides of my head beneath my entangled hair
where they belong
I close my eyes
I leave the this room for somewhere more pleasant
a burning beneath my eyes and in my chest as I wish I were there.
The feeling slowly drips out my eyes as they melt shut
the midnight wraps around me
(its kinder than people think)
a blanket of silence softer than any hug I've ever received
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message me if ur ever feeling down okay?
- lill
