wrapped up same as 8 hours before
eyes a shade darker
another night of worry added to there tone
how can I sleep when I don't know so much?
how can anyone think ignorance is bliss.
my nails have been digging
into my skin
and I haven't realised until the
white sheets are red
I can't move anymore
I can't stop embarrassing myself
I'm sick of denying
in all my life I've never looked a person in the eyes that were level to mine
and not upside down
or off kilter
the more absurd they are to me
the closer they are to 180
and it's this lost feeling ad infinitum
nothing changes
not even the wind
it's stuck in my throat
so I can't say a word without it hurting
so I don't
I think that I might lose
it won't get any worse
but it won't get any better
either
