Crimson Shadows ~ HYUNLIX

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(Sailor Song • Gigi Perez)

“Why are there so many buttons?” Hyunjin complained in a soft growl. He left another heated but soft kiss in Felix’s neck as he finally managed to unbutton Felix’s robe. The younger chuckled.

“You bought it, you idiot.” Felix mumbled. He gasped as he felt Hyunjin’s cold hands move over his warm torso.
He chuckled. “I have no regrets, Dove.” Hyunjin admitted. Felix scoffed and instead of arguing leaned into Hyunjin’s touch further.

Felix gasped softly as Hyunjin gently kissed the sweet spot in his neck. Hyunjin smirked and softly sucked the skin there. It drove Felix absolutely insane.

He wrapped his arms around Hyunjin’s neck and pressed their bodies together. He still couldn’t quite understand why Hyunjin’s sensual touches made him go absolutely feral compared to what he normally did to poor Felix.

Felix made and attempt at taking off the robe, so he’d be in nothing but his boxers, but Hyunjin interrupted his actions.
The elder shook his head. “Please keep it on, you look beautiful like this.” He pleaded. Felix didn’t feel like saying no to Hyunjin at that moment, and just agreed.

For a split second, like it always did, the little doubting voice spoke to him in the back of his mind.
This is wrong. It told him. So very wrong, and yet you act like it isn’t. Like it’s fine.

And like always Felix pushed the voice down again. He didn’t care.
Of course he knew that it was wrong, but didn’t that make it even more exciting?
And what was even so wrong about the contract? It had been a fair deal, even though Felix had been forced to sign it.

But more importantly, what was really so wrong with falling in love with a Mafia boss?

Felix cringed at the thought. His situation seemed to come right out of a book.
Again the nauseating doubt filled him.

Wasn't this all too good to be true?

Felix was snapped out of his thoughts bt Hyunjin calling out for him.
"Dove?" Hyunjin said in a pleading voice that made Felix want to hit the man at how much it excited him.
Nodding yes, the younger made and attempt at unbuttoning Hyunjin’s shirt. But just like with his robe, the thing had too fucking many. It annoyed him.

“Oh G-od!” Felix suddenly cried out as Hyunjin shamelessly started stroking him. Hyunjin groaned in his ear.

It was quite clear he was trying to keep himself from going feral over Felix. He held back. But he didn’t seem to have a problem with the slow movements and with the gentleness towards his body. Instead he held back because he was truly terrified of Felix breaking down again.

That was easily his biggest fear. They now knew each other for barely two to three months, and Hyunjin already hated seeing Felix cry. Which was weird, since he normally really couldn’t care less about people crying. He had always been convinced he only hated seeing Chan cry.

Hyunjin knew what he had been doing was wrong. He knew he should’ve never agreed to that deal to begin with.

But wasn’t that a type of shitty luck? Because how else would he have met Felix?

It didn’t matter. He shouldn’t get attached. He shouldn’t have gotten attached to begin with.

Felix sighed in something close to relief as he finally managed to wrestle himself out of his boxers. The only piece of clothing on the both of them was now his robe.

Draped beautifully around his body, the robe pulled all Hyunjin’s attention towards Felix, Felix’s body, Felix’s sounds, Felix’s taste and Felix’s scent.
The younger tried to feel confident about it, but loving his body was harder than anything to him for some reason.

Hyunjin lifted Felix from his lap and gently placed him on the bed. Felix already felt an annoying sting at the back of his throat because of the way Hyunjin was simply so gentle and kind with him.

Felix stared at the ceiling as he heard the click of the lube. He closed his eyes.

Hyunjin’s body hovered over his own. “Are you OK, Dove?” Hyunjin asked kindly. Felix pressed his lips together and nodded. He didn’t dare open his eyes. He didn’t dare meet Hyunjin’s gaze.

Gasps and moans from both filled the room as Hyunjin slid in.
Felix grabbed the elder’s biceps and tried to restrain himself from burying his nails deep inside the skin.

Panting and gasping at the most miniscule movement, Felix managed to open his eyes. “You can move.” He managed to force out.  

He shouldn’t have opened his eyes. Hyunjin’s gaze was, like he had expected, too much to handle.
Too loving, too affectionate.

“Are you sure?” Hyunjin asked. Felix consented by nodding. The rest that happened was nothing but a blur to Felix.

He really tried to restrain himself from crying. He really did.

But he just wasn’t used to that.
He wasn’t used to those caresses.
He wasn’t used to those kisses.
He wasn’t used to those words.
He wasn’t used to the slow, sensual movements Hyunjin’s body made.

He just wasn’t used to it. And it just really hit a soft spot in him.

“Dove, please don’t cry.” Hyunjin kissed his forehead. God, only if he knew that only made it worse for Felix. Or should I say better?
“Do you want me to stop?”

Felix immediately shook his head. He suddenly couldn’t fathom a world without this, without Hyunjin hovering above him like this. Without is touch. 
He sucked in a breath. “Stop and I’ll kill you.” He said in a strained voice. Hyunjin chuckled.
“Clear enough.”

Hyunjin unwrapped Felix’s right arm from his neck and laid it down beside Felix’s head. He then let his hand glide upwards towards his hand, until he was able to interlock their fingers.

Felix squeezed in Hyunjin’s hand. He managed to open his eyes, but this time he didn’t even try looking Hyunjin in the eyes. So instead he tilted his head to the side.

His own reflection stared right back at him.
Teary face, half-shut eyelids, his mouth slightly open. His eyes moved down a little.
He watched as Hyunjin leaned forwards and kissed the corner of his mouth. Then he left a trail of kisses down his jaw until he reached Felix’s neck.

Hyunjin now also looked to the side, since he was wondering where Felix was looking at. The sight absolutely blew him off his socks.
He had only been able to see Felix’s from the top (which had been quite the view on its own, if you’d ask Hyunjin), but this was even better.

Felix slightly long black hair was a complete mess, as well as his face. The way the robe was draped around his body made Hyunjin want to do things he wasn’t sure if he was ready for. It drove him absolutely insane.
The way both their bodies slowly moved up and down with every thrust.
The way Felix’s fingers clenched around Hyunjin's with each movement.
The way Felix’s eyes kept rolling to the back of his skull. The sounds he made, the way he felt. It all drove him insane.

He simply couldn’t comprehend his own thoughts and actions anymore.
He was so fucking head over heels for the other, he didn’t know what the fuck to do. 

It took them a few more minutes, but eventually they got there.

“Jinnie?” Felix cried out. He didn’t even need to explain, it was quite clear what he meant.
“I know, Dove, me too.” Hyunjin panted. He had sped up a little, but compared to the speed they normally used during this time it was nothing.
Yet it was more than anything they had done or had before.

Hyunjin bit Felix’s shoulder in restraint and Felix finally threw his head back to release the most insane orgasm he had had in a while. No, in his whole fucking life.

And quickly Hyunjin released as well.