A Penny for My Thoughts

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November 3, 2024

It's been a while since I said I was going to keep updating. 🤣🤣 I suck at this whole writing thing. Anyways let me get to the tea I got over this past year.

So, I made and lost friends in this whole process. Around these dates last year, I made new friends and let's say some stayed and some didn't. 2 new guys...let's call them Juan and James. Juan is a year older than me, while James is a year younger. Now from those two guesses, who do you think I still talk too.

Juan...

I don't really want to get into why we don't talk anymore even though I still invited him to my 22nd birthday. All because of pookie bear (Mayra). They have/had something going on. I don't know much but because of James, things between Mari, Mayra, and I got shakened. No, I did not like him. He's not even my type to begin with. Now on the other hand, Juan....

I ended up getting a little crush on him and quickly got over it until I became his friend. I ended liking him a lot, but nothing happened. He's now taken and I'm really happy for him. I don't like him anymore and honestly; I thought I'd be hurting knowing he liked someone but no. I was fine and even encouraged him to go after her. She's sweet, her name is Sandy, and she has a 5-year-old daughter. 

I also just finished a Phlebotomy program and will soon apply for a class next semester to start off. I hate my job. 

If y'all knew how tired, stressed and done I am with that place. It's not even the job, it's the new management and associates in my department. Certain people in my department just want to start problems and then act like the victim once someone stands up for themselves. Like if I could beat the shit out of them I would. 

Let me tell you about Roach. She likes to complain that nobody works, and she has to pick up the slack. Like girl no one is asking you to work more than what you're getting paid. If she sees someone taking a longer break or lunch, she will message the TL and coach. If she sees something she don't like she will go tell on you and even take a picture. She does much for a job that don't pay you enough to care. There was a time she was telling another associate "You must be miserable if you're talking shit about someone, like why ruin someone's day just cause you're miserable." Girllllll are you talking about yourself because it sounds like it. At the end of the day, she's the victim and everyone else is the villain.

Now let's get to me making another friend. Jose

Jose is the same age as me and he works in another department. Sometimes when work is slow and I don't want to be standing in the back doing nothing, I will go to his department/area he's working and talking to him. Sometimes, not always but even when busy I will still talk to him, just cause. He's really nice and sweet. I have like mixed feelings. Like I do not know if I like him or have that urge to get to know him as a friend. Though, I had a dream when I was doubting my feelings, and I knew I did not like him, but that feeling is still there. I will ignore it and just treat him like a friend because I cannot see myself dating him or any of that sort. The more I look at him and I can feel that I do not see him that way. 

I still have the charger and I recently talking to one of the peoples I used to hang out. He did in fact crashed his nice ass Camero. He now had a truck, which is still nice. I also saw Jane about a week or so ago. I forgave her and so I acted like I just met her, and I don't know how she felt but all I know I was respectful towards her. I really hope she's doing well, and life goes well too.

Marisela is funny!!! I like that girl, and I like Ceci too. 

Hopefully, I'm able to do the Christmas get together with the gang.