ehhh, this is gonna be one of those typical Wattpad rants, about that one best friend that you used to have, but now you have fallen out, and you are wondering why. be warned. and feel free to never read my shitty rant.
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have you ever met someone who just got you?
like, supernaturally so? i did. i have. many times over.
now that i am looking into it, researching human behavior, and adding Psychology/Psychiatry to the fields i am educating myself in (along with Medicine, coz covid19, yea, and also Finance and Economics, and Geo-politics, coz World War 3, yea), i realize that there is a connection.
a highly empathic person is always gonna attract the narcissists. they need such a person. they need to feed off him/her. they need his/her attention so badly.
this is why, when i find someone "i just soooo click with", i know now that it's a trauma response. i know that, give or take 2-3 months in the future, this person is sure to hurt me. coz i only attract the psychopaths, and the narcissists. my family raised me to be this way, and i am an obedient daughter.
this dude, a young man now, with a wife (? not sure) and a baby boy already - we have been colleagues, and friends, for 10 years now, or more. i even considered him a close friend, when i was younger, and still believed in best/close friends. no such thing exists, of course.
we talked often, delving into deep topics, seeing eye to eye perfectly - he got me, another Aquarius, of course he did. but i, even in my youth, noticed his tendency towards the mindfuck stuff. he would get you to share with him, and use all the info you give him against you.
a mindfuck. yes. gaslighting being just one example.
anyway. you don't care about this.
i was stupid enough to share with him, but i didn't know better, back then. i am still not sure if he realizes just how much he has been hurting me.
so, about 2 weeks ago, he was complaining to me about his mom, what problems he was having with her - asking me about my mom too, surely, although he knows well that it's a trigger topic for me.
and then, in the chat, right this thing happens. the one you see up there, totally out of the blue.
i was giving him advice (coz i am dumb as fuck, and haven't blocked him yet), sending him vids with explanations, and also good books he could read about his problem.
him? he asks this question. about my ex. totally unrelated, totally hurtful. probably hoping for some fresh gossip and drama - some more fuel for some more mind games he could play with me.
who knows?
i stopped replying, as the chat shows. but i wonder. what kind of person might you be? to be so... insensitive? he is not stupid, i can tell you this - no post of his is ever random.
but i wonder. i am useful to him, could be, i am older, more knowledgeable, i can help him in some areas, and i am someone who still tolerates him. why would he do this?
i blocked him, now. of course. it has become too much.
the ex he is asking about - we were supposed to get married. it still hurts to think about her.
and he even doesn't have this story right - the situation was very different from this. i am SURE he remembers, though. i am sure he is misrepresenting it all, so that he could get me yapping - "fixing his mistake" so that i could tell him more.
but i am older now. i am wiser. i have read more, and i know more.
this kind of manipulation is OK for the 19-year-olds - his favorites. he loves to mindfuck with them too.
i only want to know why. why? why would you do that to a person who has only, always, been kind to you, helping you in the best way possible, to the best of my ability.
an empath.
there is nothing more awful than being twisted into becoming an empath by your shitty parents. it is the worst punishment in the world, i should say.
because if you are one - and empath - EVERYTHING hurts.
