[BL] Tired Of Living As An Omega

Chapter 44

Before I transmigrated, Seong Chan-young attempted suicide, which was not in the original. The fact that I entered Seong Chan-young's body after that could be interpreted as meaning that the real Seong Chan-young would have died.

'The reason he tried to commit suicide is because he was in pain.'

The scar on his body, which seemed to have been left several times before, was engraved with resentment against Seong Chan-young's love for Seo Eun-soo and the gongs who loved Seo Eun-soo.

I felt sick to my stomach at the traces of such a rich and complicated mind that yearned, envied, hated, and desired to be like him.

If such Seong Chan-young looked at this situation now, he might want to kill me and live as Seong Chan-young again if he were alive.

Thinking about this, I was both depressed and scared, so I hugged general tightly and crawled onto the bed.

"It's okay if I go back. My wish has already come true."

I was able to come here and build the farm that I had to give up because I was weak. I was very grateful for that alone.

Even though it's a wish that won't be fulfilled, I wanted to go back to the original world and eat rice cooked by my parents. I also wanted to hear my sister's BL novel, which I used to be so sick of. I missed my sisters, brothers, and all my friends.

'I wonder if they felt this way.......'

My eyes glistened. I didn't want to understand Seong Chan-young, but I cried when I realized that I had fallen alone in this world.

"Why did I transmigrate?"'

If I had to follow the formula of transmigration, my sister, who was an enthusiastic reader, should have transmigrated, not me. I was just a muggle tired of my sister's sales.

Seeing me shed tears, General licked away the tears with his tongue.

"Awooo."

"I'm sorry. Dad's too weak-hearted, isn't he? Dad should only show his reliable appearance in front of general."

To be honest, I was actually very afraid of general's well-being. It was because of the concern about who would take care of the child if something happened to break the transmigration in the middle.

'I hate to assume it, but if Seong Chan-young really comes back.......'

It was a horror. If that happens, general will not be safe. Because Seong Chan-young hated small and fragile creatures. He was extremely reluctant to have powerless things by his side, saying that they were not worth keeping.

'I hope that's not the only thing that should happen.......'

I couldn't sleep well. With the appearance of the gongs, my comfortable headspace has become all over the place. On top of that, I was so tired because I tried to determine the fundamental cause of how I transmigrated into this novel world.

"I hope the gongs don't come back. You think so too, General?"

When I lay down on the bed, general naturally dug back into my side and settled down. When I asked him while covering the blanket, general yawned and barked little by little.

"I'll have to let Seo Eun-soo out as soon as possible so that I can feel at ease......"

Thinking of Seo Eun-soo, who was sleeping soundly in the outside building, I felt as if the boiled chicken I ate in the evening was going to come up to my throat.