[BL] Tired Of Living As An Omega

Chapter 95

My body felt heavy. My body felt as heavy as if I had a thousand pounds hanging. It was difficult to apply strength to my fingers, and it was not easy to breathe.

'.....Did I faint?'

I heard a certain sound of words in my dim consciousness. It was the voice of familiar people. Mom and dad, my family, and... the sounds of machines in the hospital that I don't want to hear.

"...Like I said. At this rate, he's going to....."

"Then doctor....."

"You'd better prepare your mind. We don't know when he's going to...."

"That can't be..."

My consciousness was getting clearer. This was a dream. However, it was different from the nightmare of black hands that bothered me. Even the respirator that wrapped around my mouth was real.

'Has this ever happened before I left the hospital?'

My eyelids were heavy; I could barely see. My body was like a dead body. Had I ever suffered so badly? I couldn't remember. Even without the black hands, this was a terrible nightmare.

"What should we do...."

"It'll be all right, honey. It's all right........."

Sobs flowed through the family. Someone was crying. I wanted to wipe away their tears and tell them not to cry, but my body still didn't move.

'Why am I not moving?'

I was struggling, trying very hard to move even an eyelid or a finger. Even if it was just a dream, it was the family I missed. I wish we could at least have a conversation. It was such a small wish.

'I'm fine. Mom and Dad. I'm going to be fine.'

I wanted to tell them that.

It was then.

"......If Yeowoon gets sick again, what will happen to our house?"

There was sharp anger mixed in my brother's crying voice. As if my brother's words were a catalyst, the desperate cry was cut off and the angry voices of my family filled my ears.

"How much does it cost to pay for the hospital if he...?"

"If Yeo-woon gets better, we can live doing what we want to do."

"Mom and Dad, you haven't forgotten your promise, have you? We can't sacrifice because of him anymore."

'...Huh.'

The feeling of joy slowly receded. I could feel it even with my eyes closed. The resentment towards me in the hospital room, unable to open my eyes due to pain.

Did I do something wrong? Why were my brothers and sisters so angry?

I felt very frustrated, as I did not understand the situation. I thought that my parents would be able to get rid of my brothers and sisters' unexpected anger.

But it was my mistake.

"......doctor."

"Yes, guardian."

"I want to quit the....."

"I don't think we can do it anymore. It's too much for the other kids."

What does it mean? Why can't I hear what my parents and doctors say as if there was noise bocking them?

"If that's the guardian's decision....."