Secret marriage with professor

Ch.24

A monodrama of unrequited love.

Meeting, love, separation
For another frustrating reason, I'm in a sad monodrama.

Sometimes, our situation may be the opposite. I have thought it would be nice if it were different, I hit the transparent wall of another world, the waves that made me swallow my tears. I want you to know that, please.

I want to be like you, I want to hug you. Is it okay to imagine all this alone? I know I look ridiculous compared to you. I also feel sorry for myself. Because now I'm always alone in a small room, In
vain imagining falling in love with you. I wanted to express my feelings and now we're apart again, that's the reason for this sad monodrama. A love monodrama that may not have the possibility of getting back together I have expressed my love and maybe after this I will say goodbye hundreds of times alone. How sad, can time be turned back to when I had feelings for her? I'm in torment right now, please take me away from this world. It hurts when I see her with a man and even with a princess, ???? please.. Just being by her side makes me very happy, and now that hope is shattered in an instant. can I turn back time to when I expressed my feelings to her, I already expected this, jennie must hate me.

The dark circles under my eyes were very obvious. I took a deep breath, Ever since I remembered my breakup with Jennie I had lost all vitality. I had completely lost my courage, I could barely breathe normally and my throat felt like it was being choked.

I groaned at the pain that spread through my back after spending the night on my apartment couch. The cushions were hard as rocks and it was uncomfortable to put my neck under. I was this close to getting a stiff neck. It wasn't a good idea to spend the night here, I probably should have slept in bed but because of this damn hangover I was forced to sleep on the couch. When I remembered what happened yesterday my brain felt like it was going to explode, my mind kept wandering to Jennie but I didn't want to face it I thought it would be better to suffer from back pain than heartache. When reality hit me again I tragically put my hands on my face, I didn't want to deal with any of it but I had to.

Anyway, I need to find a new place to live as soon as possible because I have no intention of staying here anymore.

After getting ready and doing my makeup because I looked almost like a zombie.

I walked unsteadily into the office building, actually I wasn't ready to leave today. Every step I took made my heart ache more.

I'm not ready to meet him, what should I say when I'm in front of him. Even my tears won't dry and now my eyes are swollen from crying all night, Park Chaeyoung I really hate you.

With my head down, I walked along the corridor like a wandering ghost. My self suddenly lost its luster, my joy replaced by absolute loneliness and sadness that could not be cured.

I didn't even realize I was in the lobby. I didn't know where to go because I suddenly lost my purpose in life.
Ignoring the people passing by, I walked towards my room. I put my hands on my face where I felt my tears were about to fall.

Seriously, I feel like a loser....I sob like an old widow who just lost her husband to war. It's crazy how I can feel my heart tearing right now as if I'm experiencing the pain firsthand. Drowning in my emotions, I can feel someone standing in front of me.

"Yes! Miss Park!" Someone called, and found Jisoo there. I just kept quiet in response.

"Eheeyy what's wrong? You look unmotivated, are you sick?" Jisoo asked when she was in front of me, I shook my head at her.

"Hey, what's wrong... if there's something, tell me? Do you want to tell me something?" He asked, for some reason my eyes felt hot. No, please don't cry. At least let me enter a small room first. I don't want to cry in front of Jisoo, please.