Dear Jenna...

But with you... that's totally different....

"I honestly don't know... i guess i zoned out and when i came back i was already here... i guess i just really wanted to meet you" Y/n tried to hide her blush, as she nodded, feeling more comfortable she laid more on the couch in a more relaxed position

Jenna noticed it, making herself do the same thing, she was so glad that in reality Y/n wasn't a crazy fan

"I... feel a bit embarrassed that you read them, literally my deepest thoughts were in those letters...i haven't send the ones of this week"

Jenna's heart fluttered, she remembered she had asked if she had gotten new letters, no wonder there weren't any new letters... she hasn't sent them

"Will I still be able to read them?"

Y/n's eyes widened as a nervous laugh left her throat as she quickly covered her face " You want to read them?? I don't know! I...wow jesus i feel so shy" Y/n said hiding her face, Jenna's eyes shined seeing this, it was the cutest thing she had ever seen

She never felt this with Emma, it was a whole different feeling

A huge smile formed on Jenna's face as she nodded quickly "I'd love too, your mind was very interesting to read , the way you express yourself just... caught my attention"

Not only her attention...

Y/n pursed her lips as she looked down, Jenna could see she was thinking about something, even a bit of sadness in her eyes but that went away quickly as Y/n shook her head a bit, a small smile forming on her lips but then a frown

"Something must've happened if you came all the way here, do you want to talk about it?"

Jenna looked down frowning

"Remember that letter you wrote about what I thought about love?" Y/n nodded right away, not talking, waiting for her to finish " Do you think...like I know people can't read minds of course but, do you think that..the person that 'loves' you, should notice something's wrong with you?"

Y/n nodded processing her question, pulling out a pack of white marlboro offering one to Jenna, who gladly took one pulling out her own lighter "If you don't mind we can go outside, i don't like smoking inside" Jenna nodded quickly "No not at all actually" They made their way outside, Y/n sitting next to Jenna this time

"I think that they should, because their supposed to read you, because when you've been with someone for a while they learn when somethings off or sometimes they can feel it, so yes i think they should notice somethings wrong or going on"

Jenna looked down, glad she thought like that "How did you notice i..i'm not...-"

"Okay?"

"Yeah..."

"Your eyes talk a lot, and if someone didn't notice they must've been blind "

"Emma was blind..."

Y/n stopped her movements, as she slowly looked at the girl, now it all made sense, she broke up with Emma

"She seems really nice, i don't think she meant any harm, people sometimes don't know how to handle or approach things or just decide to ignore it hoping it'll go away" 

And that's how Emma was, she didn't like confrontation, she prefer to avoid things, just like when she saw Jenna's text she avoided it for a few days until she knew she could no longer avoid it, and Jenna knew that, Emma had avoided so many things but this was something she couldn't avoid

"You pieced that very quick" Jenna said softly, Y/n shook her head "You made it very obvious about what this was about, how do you feel?"

Jenna turned around, her breath caught in her throat seeing that Y/n was already looking at her, how close they were, she played everything cool and smooth as if she wasn't just blown away

"I feel sad but... at the same time relieved that i don't have to go through that anymore, the arguments, fights, insecurities, everything ... just free i thought we matched, connected but i guess we really didn't"

But with you... that's totally different....

"Wanna go for a drive?" Y/n asked with a small smile