Dear Jenna...

Every world is chaotic

"Major change huh?" Edwards said to Natalie as they stared at Jenna from outside, who was sitting under the tree with her shades on, of course with her letters

"Who knew that would help" Natalie said softly , they had noticed, they noticed right away something wasn't right with their daughter, the sudden changes, outburst, everything, they had looked into it and knew what maybe was going on with her

You may be wondering how this is helping Jenna?

Once they were informed that the same person would send a bunch of letters weekly and that maybe Jenna personally should read them since they were a lot and consistent, once they read them they hesitated but speaking to a professional said that it might help her, to have someone, in other words...

A friend

And that's what really Jenna felt , she had a friend, like she was catching up with someone she hasn't seen in so long ago, she forgot Y/n was a fan

The feelings she was feeling while reading were hers, she was herself while reading them, she wasn't anyone else, just Jenna

"Let's see today's letter..." Jenna said with eagerness and a soft smile

Dear Jenna...

Life is so weird sometimes don't you think? I keep wondering why i keep on writing to you, i told my friend, her name is Dinah, she called me crazy and delulu and you know what i said Jenna?

I said shit, your right

But that's okay, i really like

The like was scratched, right next to it was written love

But that's okay because I love writing to you, I feel like... i don't know, not alone, relaxed you know?

It's strange, i don't know how to explain it, i do want to smoke a cig with you, i think it would be the best five minutes of my life, we don't have to talk, just sit there and smoke maybe some music too

I hope you're having a good day or night, remember to get some sleep and to drink water and eat!

Sincerely, Y/n

Jenna imagined it right away, her and the girl of the polaroid, sitting there in silence with soft music... That sounded amazing, so... so...she didn't even have words

She giggled a bit by what her friend said and what Y/n accepted, her delulu ass if she only knew, if Dinah only knew...

Jenna looked at the envelope

It had Y/n's address

She could just pull up to her house, literally but she shook her head quickly, thinking that would be maybe creepy or scary

Dear Jenna...

It was a rough day, i feel so numb, so tired, i just want a hug, people think i don't like hugs but i actually love hugs, a hug would be really nice

Jenna frowned reading this

"I can hug you, i like hugs too" She said softly

I really don't have much to say today... i'm sorry but that's okay, like i said before, it okay to have good days and bad days

As always, remember to sleep, eat and drink water please oh and brush your teeth, even though it's hard sometimes

Sincerely, Y/n

Jenna stared at the page, she could see dried spots...tears?
And it broke her heart to think about the girl writing this was crying while writing, her phone snapped her out of that trance

Emma was facetiming her

"Hi hi hi" Emma said with a huge smile, Jenna quickly smiled at her as she waved a bit "Did you get there safely? " She asked softly, Emma hummed as she laid down "Yeah, wish you were here tho, but i totally get you need space"

And she did understand Jenna needed her space, but sadly Emma couldn't see that Jenna wasn't okay

"I'll let you shower and get some sleep yeah? " Jenna said as the caught up a bit, Emma nodded and yawned as they said there goodbye's

Jenna sat there contemplating ... asking herself so many questions...

"What's wrong?" Natalie asked softly as she sat down next to her "What's going on through that mind of yours?" Jenna laid her head on her mothers shoulder

"I.." She hesitated, she really had nothing to lose, nothing to hide

"Why doesn't Emma not notice that i'm not okay, but this" She said grabbing a letter waving it up and down "This person tells right away just from one photo that i'm not okay, and i don't know mom, am i really happy with her?" this person is making me feel more than-" She stopped herself as she frowned, Natalie squeezed her shoulder tightly

"Are you...catching feelings for this person?" She asked carefully, Jenna's eyes didn't leave the letters in front of her "No...no i wouldn't...i... I don't know mom..."

"You're not happy with Emma, and you like how this person thinks? It's okay sweetie i won't judge you"

Jenna nodded looking down. "The way she expresses herself and talks well writes...that she can. I don't know, I need to think about what's going on through my head..." She chuckled as she shook her head as what Y/n once said in one of her letters

Every mind is a different world, and every world is chaotic but beautiful at the same time, I wonder how yours is? It must be a beautiful chaos, i can see it

How can she see it?