If i'm honest, you're my crush, i don't know why but really think we'd...get along together, it's just i feel this pull to you but, every time i see a photo of you i look into your eyes and it's like they speak to me, i... Jesus i don't even know why i'm saying this
This is when i questioned myself on how delulu am i Jenna because what the actual fact is wrong with, i've been so unstable these days, i don't know, i like that i can share my thoughts with you if your reading which i don't think so.
What do you think about love? I think...it's something so pure but so... destructive, it's been years since i've dated, no ones ever caught my eye like that you know? Not even my eyes, my heart, no one's been able to sway me at all, i know your dating Emma, you guys ain't fooling no one, but i hope the two of you are very happy
I took a break from writing that, i'm good, you've been posting more on instagram, you see more...well, you've slept huh? I see it i see it, you look amazing Jenna, i hope your okay, remember to sleep, drink water and of course eat
Sincerely, Y/n
Jenna put the letter down, her chest was feeling heavy. Once she read she wished she was happy with Emma, oh if she only knew that she wasn't happy, how long has it been? Was she ever happy with Emma? She wondered what happened...what went wrong? Was it her? Was she the problem? She didn't think so... she was trying to remember, and her head was hurting
She wasn't the problem, because if she was...she wouldn't be feeling what she's feeling for Y/n, plus it's been a while since she's felt like this
Herself
"Ready?" Her assistant asked, they were currently in a photoshoot, it was a quick one, Jenna was thankful for that, but something popped in her head... Y/n
Y/n would see these pictures
Jenna would shut off sometimes during these photoshoots, but this time, she was present in her mind she could see Y/n next to the camera man
These pictures were for Y/n, she wanted her to feel that connection she said and Jenna was going to make sure of that
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"What did you want to talk about?" Emma asked with a frown, Jenna placed her phone against something as she took a deep breath "I want to talk about us and i know you feel it too"
Emma frowned, shaking her head "I don't feel anything? I thought we were okay"
Jenna didn't say anything, she just ran her hand through her hair
"What's wrong ?" Emma asked, but Jenna was feeling..irritated, sad, how could Emma think everything was okay? When it clearly wasn't
"Emma, you think everything's really okay...? Or do you not want to see it..? I care for you and all but... this isn't working and i just can't"
Emma's eyes watered not knowing what to say, because what do you say when someone's breaking up with you...? When you're confronted with a reality you didn't want to accept?
"Is there another reason why...? Is there someone else..? " And Emma saw it, even through the phone, she saw it flicker in Jenna's eyes confirming there was someone else
"No Emma, there isn't, this isn't about someone else , it's about we're not okay, i've been struggling mentally and you've been ignoring it" Which is totally true, it's not about someone else, Jenna was sure of that, she was tired of not being seen by someone who's supposed to love you, cared about, and that hurt her more than anything
"Don't lie Jenna... i know there's someone else" There wasn't anyone else! That's the thing! In reality there wasn't anyone!
"I'm not lying Emma, there's no one else please understand that"
"I'm sorry but i don't believe you, it's obvious you've been acting weird lately why else would it be??" Insecure was what Emma was feeling, was she not enough? Did she do something wrong? Why was this happening? She wasn't thinking about Jenna, she was thinking about herself, she wasn't listening to her
"Emma.. i'm trying to do this right, there's no one else-"
"I know there's someone else so please just -"
"STOP! Just please stop!! You left when I needed you! Can't you see I'm not okay ?! and what if there is someone else huh?! Does it matter at this point Emma?! I.. I wanted to do this right! calmly , talk it out but you're not helping! " Jenna said as it got hard to breathe, Emma was speechless, she only heard
'What if there is someone else?' So there was someone else...
