HIS ASSASIN

Thirty

ALEXIA-

I laid on the examination table while he checked all my vitals, he said I was good to go aside from my blood pressure being a bit too high. He just told me to try and stay away from things that could cause stress but he knew what we were and said that with as much conviction as he would if he was telling us that the sky was red.

"The stab wound is healing well, the baby took nearly all of the damage, your body cleared it out by itself so there's no need for surgery, but I'll need to check in a few days to make sure there's nothing still left behind."

What did he just say? It felt like time froze in place.

What was probably one minute felt like hours as we all sat in silence.

Damian was the one to break the silence as he spoke, "She was pregnant?" He spoke quietly, like he couldn't believe what was being said to him.

I was just as much in shock. I was pregnant? And I didn't know.

I killed our baby.

Tears streamed down my face as the reality of my loss dawned on me.

The doctor, now realising he was the only one who knew about my pregnancy was just as uncomfortable as we were sitting in the room. He was apprehensive to answer but spoke before Damian opened his mouth again. "Yes, she was." We all stilled for a second, emotions running high.

"How- how far along was I?" I spoke through a strained throat and teary eyes.

He took a deep breath, "Four months"

Four months. For four months I was pregnant and I didn't even know it. "If that's it you can leave now." He tried to say it as calmly as possible but emotion was raw in his words. The doctor did as he was told and made his way out of the door to leave us to ourselves.

I didn't know If I appreciated it or not because now the more empty room matched the voidness in my soul. "Are you okay?" He seemed to be asking me that a lot lately.

"I'm...okay," I said. He didn't say anything else like he usually did. Instead, he just sat and stared at the wall, I saw the tears fighting to escape his eyes but the barriers that kept them tightly enclosed were enough to keep them from falling. "I've never thought about kids...until you." I just stayed silent.

"I know that it probably wouldn't have been good to have a child...during all of this but knowing you were pregnant-" He let his voice trail off, not wanting to deal with the feelings that came with the words he was saying.

"Yeah." Was all I could say.

ALEXIA-

It was three days after the day we saw the doctor and I would be lying if I said that the things that I felt in that room were not identical to the torment I felt right now.

I would not get over this for a very long time.

But for now, we had work to do. So where the fuck was Bishop? "Look who it is, the one who wants to ruin us all, I told you you're a snaky little bitch who can't be trusted, and now look, you e proved me right." Why out of all days did it have to be today.

I already got lectured by both Ziddan and Bishop when I got the chance to see them and I took in on the chin. It was deserved and they were angry, rightfully so.