My Boss and Her Wife

Park and Coffee

What the hell did I do?! What in the living fuck did I do?! She's my boss. She's fucking married! I don't understand this, she seems so happy when she's talking about her wife, and she brags about how beautiful she is all the time. I've seen pictures of her and she is stunning, if even that, (but I never get her name.) So why the hell would she do that? My mind has been swirling all day and I couldn't consider it. My heart and my body just felt guilt, there was nothing else there but guilt. Guilt for her wife, guilt for myself. I am not a home wrecker and I never will be. I don't even give a damn if her wife finds out and hate me, I care because she might not find out, just living with a person who cheated on you and you never know. I would rather have her know and hate me.

God, I can't take this.

I was sitting on my bed and just staring off into space. The events that took place last night have haunted me since I left her office. I left without saying a word because I was disgusted with myself that I enjoyed it. I enjoyed every feeling she gave my body, the pleasure she gave me. I hate that I loved it. She gave me something that I never thought I could get back after Amy felt she also took my feelings. It took me a year but I finally stopped crying over her and continued with my life, a life of pain and torture, a life where I will never let anyone in and feel that pain again. I closed myself off romantically from people, and I got terrified when I felt that wall crack when I was with Skylar. This cannot happen, especially with her.

I was supposed to be at work today but of course, I didn't go, I kind of wanted, to prove that I wasn't going to let what happened affect my job. But I was afraid of what would happen if we crossed paths, the thought of being in the same elevator with her scared me, the thought of being in the same room with her, alone, horrified me. So I decided to just stay home today. I called in sick and the receptionist my friend Kate told me to get better. Of course, she knew I was lying but whatever she has no room to judge. I just needed time to myself with no one around me but the TV.

Speaking of I need to catch up on some shows. I got up off my bed and went into the living room. I turned on the TV clicked on Netflix and started my journey of laziness.

After about four episodes of Grey's Anatomy, 5 episodes of One Upon A Time, and two episodes of One Day At A Time I started to get bored. I have been sitting here for more than five hours and I needed to get up. I sighed as I turned off the TV and went to my room to put on some leggings and a T-shirt with a light jacket. It was the middle of August so perfect day for a run. I grabbed my keys put on some shoes and left my apartment while also locking the door.

Once I stepped outside the August weather hit my face and I smiled. I always loved this season cause of all the leaves. I love how they would change to one color over another. I chuckled to myself as I thought about how the life of a leaf would be. Like the entire tree would be filled with green leaves and then one of them starts to turn yellow and say 'im gay' and the family is like 'Oh my gosh!' And then they start to turn yellow or brown or red. I continued to laugh at my thoughts. I started my run down the sidewalk. Thankfully there weren't that many people so I had plenty of room to do so. Once I got to the park I picked up my pace and continued down the trail. I put in my headphones and let the music take me away emptying my thoughts.

As I was running I felt someone near me but I didn't pay attention, this was a public park. I didn't mind until I felt their eyes on me, after about two minutes of this I started to slow down. I stopped to look at the person. She kind of looked familiar but I don't know why or from where. "Either You have something to tell me or you think I'm really pretty." She chuckled which almost made me fall, my knees became weak and I had to shift my weight to one of my legs.

"Well, I saw a pretty woman with a nice ass running so I just had to come to see the face. And I'm glad I did cause you are gorgeous." I smiled and chuckled.