So, in 2013, I had taken the 16personalities test and my type was ENFP. I logged into my Gmail account today and found the e-mail which I sent to myself. It was the test results. And I was like, woah I remember this, let's check it out!
I clearly remember that I was an ENFP type personality and I didn't have much time on the day I took the test, so I couldn't read my profile properly. I was just looking through my profile and not actually paying attention, you know what I mean? I had sent the link to myself to read it later, but then, I totally forgot about it.
So, today I found that e-mail lying around in my inbox and got redirected to the link. It says
1. I can't stand having routines, its too boring
2. I think that life is a big puzzle with the fragments being connected to each other through emotions and relations
3. I hate being told to do something in a certain way
4. I love adventure
5. I do not like strict hierarchies (A/N I can't believe I spelt that word...)
6. I am bright and open-minded
7. Everything I give should be given back to me and vice-versa
8. I do not like disappointing others
9. I have a large circle of friends
10. Choosing my career is a bit of a struggle for me
11. I hate to accept that we live in a world with bills to pay and work to deliver
And guess what? Its all true. I was like, "Finally! I don't feel like a weirdo who can't choose her career! Yay!" This world comprises of 7% ENFP population. (That's actually a lot if you really think about it. Here's the deal - the world has 7 billion people aka 100% and it consists of 7% ENFP. We could make a whole country! And also, consider the other fifteen personalities) and to be honest, I have been quite unhappy for the past few... months actually.
You'd probably be like, "Pfft! You have shelter, food and water! Why ya unhappy, gurl?" Or like, "Just enjoy life!" NO. That's not how it freaking works. I have friends, teachers and a family. I do not want to disappoint them. So, you can pretty much guess what I actually go through. And its not easy for me to randomly wake up one morning and be like I'm just gonna stop caring about what people think and get over it!
Let me tell you the whole point of me telling you all this, school has been stressing me out lately, my parents don't look like they care about me ever since my sister was born cause she's been getting a lot of attention she's a two year-old baby for Pete's sake! Teachers think I have one subject to study and just go on piling up work for my evening time, the time in which I want to go outside and play, see my friends and practise my hobbies, but they feel like a monotonous time of the day, in which I do the exact opposite, because I do not want to disappoint my friends and family and do my best in academics. For this reason, I chose to go to classes like music and basketball so that I literally have to make time for it. And those hours are the best part of my day. And the list of things that I am unhappy with can go on and on.
But what the heck makes the people around me think that its okay to make thousands of teenagers write stupid exams and use numbers to calculate their chance of getting into a college? What makes them think that tying me up to such a dumb education system is gonna give me a bright future? What makes my father think that I am not doing my best? (No, really, he hasn't been appreciating me very well, lately. He's just been talking nasty stuff about me) What makes people think that students are supposed to struggle all the time to get what they actually have to. What makes ME think that if I fail, everything is lost? What is making me this confused? Why do amazing people like -Think_inspiration- need to stop updating her stories to get into high school? Is it our thoughts or is it actually just how the world is supposed to be? Nah, I'll go for the first one.
But for one thing, I just want to finish school and be an adventurer. *wink, wink*
And also, lastly, I want an education system which allows everyone to do the things they like without worrying about grades and crap. The education system which allows you to actually be inspired and be happy and healthy. Not the education system which amazing people die because of.
