Why don't you just let it all out?
"TELL THEM YOU CANT."
I can't.
why?
"ALL OF THEM ARE WATCHING YOU. THEYLL JUDGE YOU."
they're watching
so? what does it matter if they are watching you?
"THEY DONT UNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOUVE WENT THROUGH. THEYLL NEVER UNDERSTAND YOU."
you don't get it
then help me understand.
"NO. THEY CANT HELP YOU."
i can't
why not?
"THERES NO WAY TO SHOW THEM. GIVE UP ON LIFE."
i don't know how
then i can't help you-
"NO ONE WILL ANYWAY. THEY HATED YOU AND WILL ALWAYS HATE YOU."
no one could in the first place.
don't say that...
"ITS THE TRUTH AND THEY KNOW IT. THEYRE JUST COVERING UP THE HOLE THEY DUG."
but it's true
no it's not and you know it.
"TRAITORS. THEYRE ALL TRAITORS AND BACKSTABBERS. THEY LIED."
liar.
i'm not lying to you.
"THEY DONT GET IT! THEY NEVER WILL. THEY HATE YOU. THEY ARE EVIL."
don't you understand?!
no
"DONT TELL THEM. THEY WONT UNDERSTAND."
of course you don't. let me ask you something.
what?
Do you even really know what it's like when you wanna go and just cry but sometimes you can't let out all your feelings inside so you just lay in your bed under blankets and hide and you keep letting people know that your feeling just fine when you're not? And your pillow gets stained by the tears that you cried for hours at a time? Sometimes you even start praying nobody comes in and asks why but the redness is already taking your eyes and you wish you could hide it but there's no disguising it so you keep crying.
...
"THATS WHAT I THOUGHT"
that's what i thought...
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Within My Mind
Non-Fictionmostly just like shower thoughts or venting stuff. I am very mentally unstable and not well so if you relate to this, please don't do what i do in some of these things. some are rants and some are deeper than you think. some are quotes and others ar...
