i thought you were here for me;
turns out you using me.
Was i a fool to see;
you might've been there for me?
There is no reason to be;
'round you just gotta be free.
So i'll keep writing for me;
why don't you just give it to me?
Say i'm a jerk, say i'm a fool;
say that i can go to hell.
But anytime you say these things
i can't help but go out and bail.
You think you gonna be fine;
not giving anyone your time?
Wasting it all at 9;
doing nothing but lyin'?
Been tryin to be a stronger soldier;
but got no control.
Been popping these pills;
god save my soul.
Don't know what to do with this anymore;
think i'm going downhill through this rabbit hole.
Might end up being alone just like before;
or maybe grab a new look and a brand new role.
Cuz i never learn from my mistakes;
until it's too late to do anything.
I never get no love to take;
whenever i'm lonely and need something.
The something i need is a hug ;
the other thing i need is some love.
Too bad theres not any for a "bug";
Just wish i could be loved.
They say i'd be better off dead;
Maybe they're right about me.
So i'll just go and lay in my bed;
and hope i won't be lonely.
There's blood on my hands;
and i don't know what to do.
Please tell me how to feel;
theres black out my eyes, goo.
I feel like i don't belong;
maybe i've been too soft.
But what if i'm not that strong;
cuz here near the open loft...
It would be better if i was more open with you;
But i feel like i can't trust anyone.
And how do i trust you when no one can do;
i can't trust myself they know i can't run.
Been tryin to be a stronger soldier;
but got no control.
Been popping these pills;
god save my soul.
Don't know what to do with this anymore;
think i'm going downhill through this rabbit hole.
Might end up being alone just like before;
or maybe grab a new look and a brand new role.
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Within My Mind
No Ficciónmostly just like shower thoughts or venting stuff. I am very mentally unstable and not well so if you relate to this, please don't do what i do in some of these things. some are rants and some are deeper than you think. some are quotes and others ar...
