im sorry that i haven't updated in so long!!!!! i feel so bad about it but between summer homework for my advanced classes and hanging out with people and trying to get a job i have had no time to update. i'll try to update more but i have band camp and then soon school but i'll try to update this one and my saving angels more! i love you all!!!
alyssa's pov
the food was gross just like i expected but i needed the food almost as much as i needed another goddamn fix. not even thirty six hours and i was already going insane. i was so going to kill Charlie but i was going to kill Ronnie first. that little shit is not going to make it through this program i don't care if he's a hot shot with a band and the only other person here who shares my music tastes he was a prick.
i walked back to our room not caring if i was supposed to be in group therapy so help me god it was hot as fuck and i wanted to change. i looked through my bag which had obviously been gone through and got pissed. sadly i had no idea if it was a shrink getting for my drugs or Ronnie being a prick again. i looked to the bottom of the bag and grabbed my suicide silence tank top. i loved Mitch and he was a huge inspiration.
i looked at the time and sighed i was already five minutes late and i really didn't want the white coats to come looking for me so i made my way to the group therapy room boots making loud noises on the too clean floor.
i opened the door and saw people sitting in a huge circle and it seemed like kindergarten story time all over again. sadly, true to his word Ronnie had saved me a chair right next to him.
"hey princess finally made it!"
"do not call me that ronald my name is alyssa and you know it."
"ehem Ronnie and um i guess Alyssa stop fighting we're all going to introduce ourselves again because Alyssa decided to make herself present." i heard everyone in the room groan and felt their eyes on me and i honestly didn't give a shit i needed to change so they can suck my rainbow. i sat down grudgingly by Ronnie and watched the little blonde girl on the other side of the circle start.
"im hannah and i have an eating disorder."
"im brady and i tried to commit"
"im jonathan and im both abused and abusive"
"i'm ronnie radke and im a sexy lead singer in a band" the leader chick glared at him and he just laughed.
"fine. hi my name is ronnie im an addict"'
finally it was my turn and i was glad to get it over with.
"hi my name is Alyssa and im an addict"
"good now-" after the lady started talking and asking questions i started tuning her out. there was no way in hell that i was listening to her bs. i didn't need the psych evaluation i needed to get clean and i was already being forced to do that by just being here. next thing i know i her roniie singing under his breath-
Situations are irrelevant now.
She loves the way that I tease,
I love the way that she breathes
I touched her ooh, she touched my ahhh, it was the craziest thing.
I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh.
She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night
She can't behave and I'm just a slave,
don't worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.
Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
dying is your latest fashion.
The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put it in my lap
"It's way too full," she said
"Once you have me you'll always come back."
She can't behave and I'm just a slave,
don't worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.
Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins
dying is your latest fashion.
I know you love to resist
and all it takes is a kiss
and you just love to hate me.
You know you love all the lies
so don't act surprised
that I just love to hate you.
I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing.
I love the girls who love to hate. [Breathing]
(Whoa) Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me, go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins,
dying is your latest fashion
Darling (leave me) what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me (darling) go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins,
dying is your favorite passion
"excuse me mr. radke this is a not one of your music videos or band practices and b not a porn video so if you could actually pay attention because you also seem to be distracting ms Alyssa as well"
"hm i would say i'm sorry but i'm not" he then looked at me with his stupid smirk
"besides i can't help it that Alyssa secretly wants to do me as much as i wanna do her"
i got pissed as hell. the mother fucking prick! i stood up and got in his face
"the only time i'd ever do you would be in your dreams you pervy little shit. you think i like you because you're in a band huh? yeah fuck that." and then i punched him square in the face.
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love through recovery
Fanfictionalyssa is sent to rehab by her best friend and there she meets ronnie radke from escape the fate and at first they hate each other but slowly as their recovery progresses they fall in love. sometimes good things come out of bad situations but will t...
