Yearning For Your False Allures

Chapter Fourteen

Rather Suffer
“ A rose died by its thorns ”

(Zerafina's P.O.V.)

I'm tired of being hurt by that man‚ that man...

The man that I loved‚ the man that I'm willing to ruin myself just for him. Ngayon lang ako nagkaganto dahil sa pag-ibig. This is not me‚ I'm insane because of him.

Naging ganto na ako simula noong nakilala ko sya‚ and I hope we never met.

Pero sino naman ang aking mamahalin at gugustuhin kung hindi kami magkakilala‚ sino ang lagi kong aabangan na sumilip sa kwarto ko habang natutulog ako. Sino ang magseselos kapag may nakakasama akong ibang lalaki‚ sino ang magsasalita ng masasamang salita saakin pero maya-maya ay hihingi na ito ng tawad.

At sinong mananakot saakin.

I just want to have the love that I wanted.

But this is not love. If it's love? I'll never be hurt or wasted because of a man‚ hindi ako madudurog ng ganto kung pagmamahal itong iniaalay saakin ni Marceau. Kasi kung pagmamahal 'to‚ bakit patuloy akong nasasaktan? Patuloy ang pagdurugo ng mga pulang rosas sa aking puso‚ kahit na ito'y may tinik ay tila ba walang kalaban-laban sa mapusok na Marceau Ferrari.

If it's love‚ mararanasan ko ang mga nararanasan ng mga prinsesa. Kaya I consider myself as a queen‚ dahil sa ginagawa ni Marceau saakin parang hindi ko naman kailangan ng prinsipe.

Kung masasaktan at masasaktan lang din naman ako‚ mas pipiliin ko nalang maging reyna kesa maging prinsesa. Kasi kapag prinsesa‚ mayroong prinsipe sa tabi ko na mamahalin o sasaktan ako.

All I want is the love that last‚ all I want to feel what being a princess feel. They may be hurt but they have the prince that can save them from sadness‚ hindi yung prinsipe pa ang nananakit.

I was hurt‚ but I kept it on my mind and
shut my freaking mouth. Because I already knew at the first place that I'll never be Marceau's princess nor queen. He's always fooling me‚ fool me and fool me til' I lose interest on him.

But can't believe that I can lose interest on him? I'm literally crazy over him‚ so how I'll lose interest.

I just sat in a corner where no one knows that I'm here‚ just expressing my feelings to myself. I'm alone‚ freaking alone.

I just fell in loved with the man who is considered as one of the most deadliest mafia in the world. But I don't think he's that deadly‚ he's angelic.

His face was angelic‚ he's like an angel that came for me‚ but destined to other girl. I just dreamed about marrying him but I guess‚ I'm not the one who will be married with the man that I loved.

Pero kahit mas gusto ng ama nya si Alizandra‚ inayos pa din ni Marceau ang kasal namin at ngayon na kaagad magaganap.

Mamaya-maya ay aayusan na din ako‚ at andito ako sa garden‚ nagmumuni-muni.

Kaya ko pa ba magpakasal?

"Madamè‚ aayusan na daw po kayo‚ paki-suot nalang po nitong bathrobe." saad ng maid saakin‚ tumango nalang ako sa sinabi nya.

Lalakad na sana ako ngunit biglang sumulpot si Cezilion. "Ready ka na‚ it's your time. Time to take Marceau Ferrari's hand‚ sana okay ka lang." saad nya "I am ready..." I said "Basta‚ haharapin mo lahat ng pagsubok kapag mag-asawa na kayo. Tatandaan mo‚ andito lang ang best friend mo." he said while smiling then he patted my head.

I hope I'm really ready.

Nilalagyan na ako ng makeup‚ I requested na kung pwede ay dark feminine ang makeup style na ilagay saakin.